Love Bomb

I am asked so many questions in regards to love.  Everybody wants love, not everyone knows what to do with it, but they definitely want it.  Even after the people that say they love us, hurt us, we are still there trying to squeeze a little of something that may feel like love.  Others will fake it in order to get what they think they deserve.  But once that mask is gone, they are too.  Real love is everlasting.  If you have ever been loved you will never forget how it made you feel.   Love can change you and rearrange your life in a good way if you are open to it and do not try to control it.  It is wonderful to be loved exactly the way that you are.  To be accepted with all your perceived flaws.

Love is not something I was familiar with for a long time.  I did not hear it at home and it was only displayed through material acts and empty words.  I really never saw love in action.  I didn't have a chance to define what love was for me, until after a few broken hearts, a few misguided relationships, a few engagements, and a few children later, I think I finally know what love is.   I thought I knew how to love, by giving myself to the person I loved.  I am action-oriented, so I am only going to tell you I love you so many times, my actions, the way we make love, the time we spend, what I share with you, and how I open up to you will show you that I Love you.  I come from an authentic place.  I can not pretend to love you or care. 

When you are authentic, you often meet people who resist your openness and your ability to love yourself through all circumstances.  Those people have yet to love and accept themselves and face all they hide in those closets. It is not your fault when people project their bullshit onto you.  Being jeolous, envious and a liar will not help you manifest a happy life.  Look at the people around you, are you winning or losing?  You will constantly run into road blocks when you try to gain something you do not deserve.  The scales must be balanced, you must receive what you dished out.  Then you can start the journey to receiving what you deserve. 

I was genuine in my relationships with people who couldn't be genuine with me. I would always pick up on the uneasiness within the relationship even when things were going well.  It was an indication of the things to come.  I learned to love myself through heartbreak.  I learned to not be so nice and to see people for who they are and not the idea I wanted them to be.  I struggled with self-love because I didn't make the connection it had to me.  I thought love was all about the other person.  Of course, that left me feeling drained and confused.  So I took a step back and started to see myself.  The beautiful, sweet authentic person I am. I learned to give to her.  I love myself fiercely and  I do not let anyone inside my space who does not deserve it. I know what my energy brings, I know what it can do. 

When you gain self-knowledge, no one can tell you anything.  When you heal yourself and build yourself up, no one can benefit from that, but you, because you did the work.  There will be people coming around saying they love you, love bombing you to death, saying that you are all this and that. Well, that may be true, but always check who is telling you that and determine what their real motive is.  Some people have no other choice but to pay you the respect and to gain your favor because all the other schemes and tactics did not work.  Now you want to rumble with the Bee.  Bzzzzzz. Real recognize real,baby and if you can not be real with yourself, why are you even in my face?  Why are you in anyone's face?  How can you come correct when you're lying to yourself?   You still have things you need to work out and that's ok.  Work it out. Just don't try to interfere with my paradise.

Love can sound cheesy and deemed to not be all that.  But it is.  Love is everything. It is an experience that needs to be shared.  It can make a weak man strong.  It can bring life to death.  It can make you feel invincible.  There are so many ways to express it.   If the love in your life is not making you feel those things, it's time to evaluate where you are and what you are doing.  If you can not do things for yourself that make you feel incredible.  If you don't congratulate yourself on your accomplishments, clap for yourself the loudest and reward yourself for doing a great job, or for not giving up, then you need to show yourself some more love. Be selfish with your time and space. And on some mornings, when you are not feeling earth, do what Mary said and look in the  mirror and say, "Good Morning Gorgeous"... Love bomb yourself, put yourself on that pedestal.  Show the world how to love you and they will.

Peace & Love

Lavidus