Leave Your Past Behind.......

Leaving the past behind is something that many of us are afraid to do.
Holding on to people, places and things that are familiar often becomes a place of comfort and inhibits your ability to grow.  There's comfort in pain, comfort in reliving something that destroyed and changed you.  The lesson is done, now let it go.  I promise that once you release everything that is holding you back, it will feel like the weight has been lifted off your shoulders and a new life will begin.

Letting go of old relationships that you ruined or tried to ruin you.  Let go of the pain and reviving old conversations and reasons why you're no longer together.  Let it go.  Let go of old jobs that drain you of your creative abilities, your ability to think and live a life that is filled with your highest good.  Tap into energies that you have not discovered.  Take a risk and stop playing it safe in victim mode, cause nobody cares.  Challenge yourself and shake up your sub-conscious.  Open your mind to what is new.  That is the only way that you will grow and change into the man or woman you deserve to be.

I have the tendency to keep people in my life because of comfort.  So-called friendships that serve no real purpose.  I don't have to prove anything to them, I don't have to answer to anyone, just people that float in and out of my life for no apparent reason.  And it dawned on me, I have outgrown this revolving door.  My light does not shine brighter because you are around.  It's cool when you're single and seeing who you want, but when you are elevating your love and opening yourself up to something new and different, some people who are not part of the current program will have to be dropped into the abyss of the past.  You can not drag the old you into a new relationship, it's not going to work.  If a person does not resonate with me or vibe with where I am going, then its time to reevaluate the relationship.  Often a person tends to get lost in what I look like physically, without realizing that I have a highly functional brain. I am only going to go where you go.  If you are superficial, then I am going to give that "superficial" energy back to you or not hang around at all.  If you are a real person who is clear about their decisions and about what they want in life, then we're on the same page.  Timeout for men and women who are still lost, still sabotaging relationships, still unclear about their sexuality, still foggy about women, still lying, still giving women a false sense of hope, those people need to be left in "Stillville."  Surround yourself with people who are not afraid to be themselves.

This is my last post for 2018.  I plan on making the new year one of my best years yet.  I hope big things come for you and all that you deserve comes into fruition.  This world was given to you, me and them too, so you can have anything that you imagine and even more.

Be good to yourself and others.

Love Love and Love 2019

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That Holiday Price......

Ohhhh The Holidays!

This is always the time of year when you get to see or feel how much people in your life think you are worth.  This can come in many forms and some surprises.  Although "Christmas" is one of the most commercialized holidays built on the fantasy of "Santa Clause" that many people tend to fall under the trance of, it is still considered a real thing and a justifiable ritual that many of us participate in each year.

Christmas time is also when crime is high and self-esteem, self-loathing and insecurities are at an all-time low. So you gotta ask yourself, why participate?  Why do we rush out to spend money on those we love or buy things for people we really don't care about.  I don't know, maybe generational programming and no desire to find out the truth?  I do know whether you get something you want or not, it will all make you check your self-worth just a little bit harder.  He gets you that diamond ring, but it's really a cubic zirconia, would you love him any less?  You wanted a motorcycle but she got you that scooter, it will still get you there, right?  Those are just examples of how our self-worth should not be tied to things.

Let's consider the other side of the holidays, the side that does not include gifts, just love.   The side that invites you to get together with family to talk and heal wounds.  It's time to tell that man or woman how you really feel, whether its a break-up, reuniting or just deciding to keep it lit, give in to the truth of whatever it is you are feeling.  Bask in that feeling you get when you know that someone loves and supports you.  It's all love and that's all that matters.  Remember to love, forgive and move on for the holidays.  Release that stuck energy and open up to the divine.  Embrace the dark times and appreciate the light.  You can never put a price on a person or the weight of their love, but if you want to get me those black stiletto thigh-high boots, I will definitely wear them. Size 8.


LoveIsReal

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Have You Ever Been In Love?

Have you ever been in love? 

Have you ever felt love so strong that it stirs your soul so deep, it keeps you wanting more?  Have you ever given in to the desire to be loved only to find yourself in the arms of love?  Holding you close, keeping you warm.  Whispering, I love you's in the middle of the night; starring at you while you sleep, yes, that kind of love.

The kind of love that you feel long after his physical presence has left the room.  His touch lingering on your skin, his kiss stamped all over your body.  Giving yourself completely without a second thought.  Have you ever felt that?   A presence of love so strong that you consider it your armor.  Protecting you against those who have never experienced such love.  Waving my hand, and wishing you the best because I really hope you feel it one day.

Thinking of him, the phone rings, and it's him.  Completing your thoughts, satisfying your every need without having to ask, because he has been paying attention.  Comfort in the time of storms.  Every day is a breeze because of your love.  Nothing even matters because of you, I am free.  Free to dive deep in your ocean of love.  It is you. The perfect example of love, thankful that you shared it with me, unselfishly.   No one could ever fool me to believe that love is not real.  Even in its fakest form, it still feels just as real.  Love yourself enough to know the difference.

Being in love is knowing that love is the only real thing.  Once you feel love, there is nothing that can replace or compare to that feeling.  It's magical, sacred and transformative.  Everybody needs love, the lack of it brings out the pettiness of those who vibrate low.  Send them love.  Never compromise your love for the comfort of someone else. Do not abuse your love, you will lose it and forever be looking for it again.   If you have ever been in love you know that love is to be shared, honored, and handled in the most gentle of ways.  Be the love you desire.


LoveLoveLove....Repeat

The Angry Mama's Boy!

Before you read, if you are turned off by curse words, turn off my blog, it's not for you.

Have you ever had a man that loved and hated his mother?  Loved her because that's what you are supposed to do, but hated her because his father wasn't around.  She'll ridicule him to make him feel less of a man unless he is doing something for her.  God forbid if he gets a woman and she has no man.  She will make him her makeshift husband.  She will make it a point to discredit his woman and interfere in the relationship.  This mother is only a problem if the son allows her to be.  It is not your job to go to battle with her, because if you do, you might lose him.  If he does not stand up for you to her, especially when she's wrong, then you are just a body in a relationship.

I dated a man who made it a point to deceive any woman that he came across.  It took me some time to see clearly.  Love has a way of making people appear greater than they really are.  Our perception gets cloudy by our desire to have someone.  There are no grey areas with my love, so once the decision is made that we are a couple then that is how I proceed.  He, on the other hand, had no idea about relationships or how to relate to women. (Now, women, if you ever run across a man who has no respect, no love and despises his mother, run as fast as you can because that is what you'll be getting.)  Hindsight is 20/20.

Men with mother issues, often take their frustration out on every woman that he comes across.  He'll be over-critical, complain all the damn time, point out your flaws, and is often abusive.  It's not you he's mad at, it's his mother and missing father. He'll make all kinds of excuses to justify his immature actions, but unless he's able to confront his own issues, pain or his mother, nothing will change.  He'll go through life justifying his limiting beliefs and recruit others to collaborate on his misery.  Who needs that?

If your man has a habit of fucking up, don't make it a habit of accepting it.   You are not his mother.  Take a look at yourself and realize that you can definitely do better.  If he is willing and makes a serious effort to be in a loving relationship, you determine if he's worth it. Be clear about what you want from a man or woman.  Write it down, visualize it, because you can have it.  Never stay in a relationship where the down times outweigh the happy times. Don't lose yourself to the point where your dreams die, you lack ambition or your self-esteem gets crushed, that is not what you are here for.  Unless a man is able to acknowledge you as the amazing creator that you are, keep it movin'!



LoveOnYOU

The Purge.....

Changing also means purging.

Transforming also means leaving those old habits, thoughts, and people in the rear view.  Letting go of the things that no longer serve your highest good or the person that you are becoming, all must be left behind.   You have to not only forgive people and let them go you have to replace them with people who know your worth and value your time.  And let me be the first to say that it is not always an easy transition.

When you begin to see friendships change or dissipate, let them.  When you realize that you are surrounded by people who are only close because they want to be the first to see you fail, dismiss them without a second thought.  When people show you time and time again who they are, believe them.   Even the big bad wolf eventually reveals itself to the unsuspecting lamb.  Everything hidden will be revealed.  You can acknowledge someone's inability to see your worth, but you do not have to have them in your space unless you want too.

Silent claps filled with the air of jealousy and disappointment in their own lives; that, my loves, have nothing to do with you.  Be willing to disappear and become an empty space in the life of someone who does not support your dreams or have anything nice or sweet to say.  Let them leave your space and preserve your energy for the ones that cheer and cheer loudly.   Find your tribe, and let them find theirs.  You are ascending to heights that they can never dream of and you can not take them with you and why would you want to?

You may have to be alone in observation mode before you take your true flight.   In order to make better decisions, in order to love better, in order to receive the abundance that you deserve, you have to find out who you are and what you want.   Go inside and get to know yourself.  Find out what you are made of.  Do not let anyone else determine who you are.  Some may see your light and watch you shine.  Once they see your potential, their fear sets in.    Release with compassion.  A good life to them may only consist of a free happy meal and a $2.50 drink, let them revel in it.  Everyone does not have the ability to imagine more for themselves, they're limited in thought and actions.  Allow them to live the life they deserve.

You may experience drawbacks and want the comfort of what you think you know.  Deny it, going back to comfort will only delay your growing process.  Growing can be painful, but the other side of that pain is pure love.  It's a better version of yourself, its a whole new world right inside of you.  Be fearless, Be Love and Never Settle for crumbs when you can have the whole damn meal!!

LoveOnLove

The Mind is a Terrible thing to Waste

The mind, the most complex organ that we don't use.   I won't bore you with the biology of the mind, you can google those specifics.  I want to know how you are using your mind to get all the things, people or places that you desire.  It is your special power; your own unique navigator that you can control for the good and bad of you.

Let's talk about the imagination.  The most magical part of our existence.  If you can imagine it, create the feeling of what it is, then it is yours.  If you can dream it, that's manifestation at its best.  There is nothing that you can think in your mind that can not come into fruition.  It is like you are summoning the universe to give you what you desire and often she does.  What do you believe?  What do you believe in? What makes it real to you?  Real or imagined, it all exists.

What do you think about the most? Your subconscious mind knows all.  It is the amp behind your thoughts, and beliefs about yourself and others. It governs our behavior.  It can trip us up by always giving us what we are comfortable with because it does not enjoy taking risks.   That's where your mind steps in, and becomes the deciding factor in your growing and experiencing the other side of greatness.  Even if its a mistake, there is growth in the lesson, at least that is the intention.

Have you ever kept making the same mistake?  Choosing the same relationship? Drama with the same people?  Reliving the past?  You subconscious will always give you what you are comfortable with. What you think about the most is the dominant vibration you're sending.   What you send you receive.  The next time you find yourself worrying and thinking about things in a negative manner, change that thought.  Instead, think about making love, being kissed or create a happy thought that emotionally makes you feel good. Think about how wonderfully made you are and how you have so much to give to the world.  Think about who you want in your life and how you will do things differently.  Think about me.

Get in the habit of beginning your day with a positive thought.  When you lay down for the night dream before you close your eyes.  Imagine what you desire the most is already here, and expect it to appear.  That is what the mind does, it gives you what you desire.  Just believe.  Don't waste your thoughts on things that do not matter.  Do not willingly give your energy to entities that have no substance.  Preserve and protect your being and do not let it go to waste.

Live Your Love

Why are you Single?

Why are you single?

I used to cringe when someone asked me that question.  It used to make me feel like I needed to be in a relationship.  It made me feel like there was something wrong with being single.  Then I started to think, what is wrong with being single?  My conclusion.......absolutely nothing!

Single is the place where I have been able to explore myself as a woman.  It is been where my greatest love was developed.  Single is, if I want to have dinner with you, I will.  And if I want to take a train ride with someone else, I can.  My only obligation is me.  It makes me fully responsible for my happiness. There are people who are in marriages, who have yet to find themselves.  They do not know themselves or the person they married. There are several people in relationships, trying to break that soul tie. A soul tie that was created out of the need to have someone in their bed.  If I wanted to be married,  all I have to do is say yes, but I am not the one to be in a relationship just for the sake of having a man or husband.  Growth and understanding of self, has been a mission that only I can complete.  

I am not a woman in waiting.  I am not waiting on a man to complete me.  I am doing that myself.  I want to be fully evolved to the level of my next love.   I am beyond the level of infatuation.  The stronger I love myself, the stronger our love will be.  I am single because that is how I entered the world.  I am not part of the collective that says that you have to be with someone in order to exist or validated.   I am existing in my own dreams, and once he appears he will join me in this magical realm. Divine timing will make it exist.

I am not religious.  My religion is me. There are restrictions in religion that no human can attain.  My spirit is free and can not be defined by yearly rituals, commandments, and other indoctrinated acts.  My husband is already my husband, wherever he is, he has his own journey and eventually, he will be presented to me.  We will have stories to tell and moments to share because once we get together it will ignite another level of love in us.  A matrimony of love and understanding that will surpass anything either of us has ever experienced.

So the next time someone asks you why are you single? Tell them because you are minding your own business.  Every single person is not looking for a mate.  Being married is not the goal of every single woman.  And if it is, that is your prerogative.  You should never be judged for the season you are in because seasons change.  Enjoy and savor where you are right now. I can not tell you how sweet it is to wake up on a Saturday morning with options.

Love Make Love

Let It Burn.....

We learn our greatest lessons through pain.

I have been in love and have been hurt by that same person.  I was in love with a  man who could not see me.  We looked nice holding hands and he looked nice by being seen with me.  The sex was blinding, mystical and helped me go further down into the darkness.  He used to always tell me that "People who think highly of you, don't know you."  I did not know at the time, but that was his way of telling me what he thought of me.  He was basically a bum, a science project.  I was listening to his words, but not hearing them.  He was jealous, controlling and I loved him.

When you are in love with someone, you only see what you want to see.  You hope for the best.  You want that person to love you, so you do things to show that you love them.  My intent to show him that he could trust me and that it was ok to love me was fatal mistake number one.   I was a lamb in his wolf's world.  There is nothing worse than loving someone who see's no value in you or themselves.  We not only come with baggage from our previous relationship but what our parents gave us.  He was a broken man, so he lived to discredit me and make me look like a fool for entertaining him in the first place.  I had always dealt with men who were honest, sincere and who knew how to treat a woman.  When I meet him, I was baffled by his view on life and women, he had bad luck with both.  I thought he was an easy fix and a solid distraction.   I believed that eventually, he would be his best, but that never happened.  Mistake number two, falling in love with potential.  

There were things that brought us together, like being raised by one parent, while not really knowing the other.  My father was missing and the two step-fathers that were in my life, only showed me what I did not want.  I saw many things in my life that formed my opinion of men and women who put other people before them in the name of love.  Yet,  I was still willing to be open to love, have love, because I craved it, without really knowing what it was. I had also forgotten one crucial element to any relationship and that is to love myself.  Once I started that journey of self-love.  I started to see this man, for who and what he really was.  We can only be deceived if we refuse to see what we need to.  The signs are always there, the universe always protects and gives us warnings before the final tower moment.  The moment that shakes us to the core, so much so that we are forced to change, forced to consult the higher self to become a better, lover, mother, friend, wife, husband.  If you are around people that experience constant bad luck and drama, its because they are refusing to change.

That man was brought into my life to help me have standards and create boundaries.  I was the kind of woman, who had been in a previous long-term relationship with a man who told me the truth.  He loved me with everything he had and I loved him. His actions confirmed what he was feeling and his promises were never broken.  When he passed, I thought that all men, were men, and sadly that is not the case.  That guy was there to help show me what I needed to change.  Sometimes we have to thank people when shit doesn't work out.  Cry about it for a second or two, then get back up and say thank you, motherfuckah! Adios!

I am not sure of what that X  is doing these days.  It's been many years since I left for the final time.  I completely let go and wished him the best.  The woman that I have become, is the woman that he thought he couldn't have in the first place.  The temporary pain eventually subsides and if you are able to complete the challenge by not revisiting a toxic relationship, the reward is moving to the next level..   There are levels to this shit. Dimensions, yet to be explored.  Do not settle for comfort, what's familiar, or believe you can't do better, because you can. You must take the time to do the necessary work on yourself, or you will repeat the cycle until the lesson is learned; the universe is generous that way.  It will be lessons after lessons, with different faces until you get it.

I always thought I knew everything about love, but it wasn't until I put that love energy into myself that has given me the greatest satisfaction.   It draws the right people in and keeps the wrong people away.  When you lack nothing and become whole with oneself, there is nothing or no one that can make you see yourself differently.  Love yourself so tough, that you could care less what people think.  Their thoughts are not your business.   Love fearlessly, be kind and live in the moment.  Every day is another chance to get it right.

Love and More Love

Love on the Run.....

You get close, then you pull away.  It feels so good, but you get afraid of it and break away. Only to return, craving for what only I can give you.  It is everything that you've asked for, yet when it comes you are not ready.  You long for a real connection and not the superficial relationships that are based on the value of your car.   You want more and I need more.  So why are you running?

This life always affords us the things that we want.  Although we often lose things and people, it is all wrapped up in a lesson that needs to be learned.  What lessons are you learning?  How many times are you going to block what you want the most?  Don't you know that love is eternal?  It will appear when you least expect it, so expect it and watch it bloom.  We must be open to love and not fear the reoccurrence of what we have already experienced.  In order to get a different result, we must be different ourselves. The beginning and the end is locked within us. Set yourself free. ` Heartbreak often makes us cautious and not trust.  But we must take that risk.  We must take a dive into the unknown and embrace what we truly desire.   Our truth lies on the other side of what we fear.

Surrendering to love is always a risk, but isn't is worth the softness of my lips as we kiss?  Isn't it worth coming to join me in this realm of life, belonging to only you?  Isn't it worth making love until the rim of the sun rises?   Isn't it worth looking into the eyes of fate?  Isn't it worth it to touch my skin at your leisure?  Isn't it worth it to see your dreams come to life?  Familiarity is what you will feel when the completion of what you manifested appears.  You will know, from never knowing.  It will all make sense because now you do.  Let me be the first to say, it feels so good to be loved by you, so stop running.


Love Forever and Ever.

So...What the F*** You Doin'?

There are a few ways to live this life; you can either get involved or stand on the sidelines.   So what the f*** you doin? There are no right or wrong answers because everyone has a part to play.  Everyone cannot be in the same space going through the same things all at the same time. However, we can share experiences that we have had at different periods of time.  We are here to experience. We are here to feel and most of all, to love.  So what the f*** are you doin? We are more connected than disconnected, but our misrepresented differences have become the theme of our lives.  Everything and Nothing matters.

In the midst of it all, what the f*** are you doin? Are you still living in the past? You can't seem to get past how they hurt you?  Are you still living with that man or woman that you stopped loving a long time ago?  What the f*** you doin?  Are you still blaming other people for your situations and your decision making? If so, what the f*** are you doin?  Is it not your life?  If you find yourself wanting a man, but you are so perfect and he has to be perfect, that no one can live up to your standards.  I am in no way asking you to lower your standards, but everyone comes here to make mistakes, everyone has flaws, and those things should be something we should try to embrace and understand before we judge.  Don't you want to be loved for all of you? Flaws and all? 

We are here to share experiences.  If you think you got all this shit figured out, what the f*** are you doing? We all would like to know.   Even with things that seem less than perfect, you'll find perfection. We are all flawed in a beautiful way.  We all deserve the love that will fill our wounds to heal them.  So? What the f*** you doin?  Are you still dishing out the pain that was given to you or are you finally ready to open up in a real and unfiltered way?  Expose that inner beast that is the hardest and the softest of you.  Come to me, otherwise what the f*** you really doin?


Love, Over and Over Again.....

Life IS.....

Life is like a roller coaster.  Life is crazy.  Life is amazing.  Life is full of shit. Life is whatever you want it to be. On any given day at any given moment, we have the power to change.  Where ever our minds, hearts, and thoughts take us, try and go there. We give into the prevalent energy that brings you to where ever you want to go, good or bad, you are the captain of your shit.

Often people think just because you have a pretty face, you've lived a pretty life.  They've confused things and have forgotten about character, love and knowing what it is to be a genuine person.  When those lines get blurred between the wolves and the sheep, it becomes a dark and lonely place where enemies wear the smiles of a best friend.  My fortress has become my weapon to serve all that is good; tactfully and with honesty.   There is nothing that can penetrate the sweetness of her honey.  You might taste and forget what you had before; then long for it for the rest of your life.  The price of intentions.

The next time you feel that you can not go on, remember that you have made it this far.  You have a purpose, and it is to live in your truth.  Once you are able to accept yourself, the masses will follow.  There is nothing wrong with being admired and misunderstood.  Let them figure out the rest.  You can't be everyone's lead.  Start with yourself.  Everything is possible.

Remember, life can be crazy, life can be amazing, while on your journey, each day is what you make it.  Do not get distracted by things that drain your energy.  Exercise your right to ignore things that do not empower you. Stand in a positive place, say goodbye to who you used to be. While in your season of Persephone, this chapter is requiring a higher degree of yourself. Be like a flame, and let it burn.

Love

A Love For Many Lifetimes......

I always welcome love with open arms, because the thought of never having it is something I can never imagine, so when I happen to fall in love, it is with intention.  It is not in the frivolous manner that some easily dispose of.  It does not lend itself to the use of a word that holds little or no meaning.  If I ever tell you that I love you, I really do.

You may not hear me tell you that I love you every day or every other day, but you will see it in the way that I look at you.  You will taste it in the meal I prepare for us. You will feel it when we make love and when we take each other to heights unknown and unexplored thoughts and manifestations.  As we travel to many realms of life, just hold my hand because once we go there, we may never be the same people to others or to each other.  It's just deep like that.  I won't play with you unless it's our time to.  If you would like, this love can drip from my fingers while I give you a back massage?  Or would you like it to spill from my lips, as we take in the same breath and then release it back into the atmosphere, only to have it transform into a silly substance that will bond us together forever?  Are you ready for this trip?  You only need one ticket.

As deep as my soul can go, you will be there to explore the depth of this commitment, this loyalty, there are no shallow waters, there is no end or bottom. It has always been for you, it will forever be here for you, that is my promise.  In this lifetime, and in the next, we will do what we have always done, and find each other and be what we need to be to each other.  There is no space or time between us, so don't be afraid when I appear.  You may not be ready, but I will be a familiar place, without any previous knowledge of our being.  There will be many faces to lead me to you, but you will know when the face you see is me.  I will feel comfortable with you because I am.  There is not much to be said, because we already know.  Here we are again, getting to know each other, such a beautiful process.   Just as much as I love you,  I know you love me too.  Many who say they love each other, will never experience what we have in a thousand lifetimes. Even when you feel the need to run and take your love away or I feel that I can do better, I know that we really belong within each other.  I will miss you until we meet again, and this time I won't mind that you leave the toilet seat up.

Love in Advance

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Negative Energy

Negative energy is just as prevalent and necessary has positive energy.  They both co-exist and for some, depending on your location it is the necessary component for survival.  Everything and everyone requires balance.  The yin and yang, masculine and feminine, good and bad.  It is all energy. The fluid that flows among us all.  We are taught to just focus on the positive things in life, but depending on who you are it is the negative or dark things that bring you the most pleasure.

It is common practice to ignore your dark side and to constantly be in a positive state of mind.  I know that "being" positive and having an overall "feeling" of goodness tends to bring you more of those moments.   Looking at the brighter side of things brings more of those happy moments into your life, but what do the negative things being?  Lesson and consequences?  If we change our ideas about what is negative or positive would it change the outcome?

For example, sex.  Sex is looked upon as something that can be negative if you have had several sexual partners. Or if you have sex before marriage?  It's considered a sacred act until you actually have it and enjoy it.  Depending on how and when you have it determines if it is negative or positive.  Sex is a natural act among humans. It creates the highest level of vibration.  It's euphoric and creates a marriage between two spirits.  It doesn't matter who you actually marry, you create a union with all of your past sexual partners and a documented marriage does not erase that.   It's powerful, it can alter your perception and control your emotional state.  Sex does not know if you are in love, yet many have fallen in love with it.  The energy created from it can be negative or positive.

Hold on to your positive energy, your highest vibrational spiritual state.  The spirit is what may be in jeopardy.  Pay attention to the vibes you get when you walk into a room, or how you feel when you are engaging in conversation.  The energy can and will tell you all that you need to know.  Whatever you decide to make your dominant energy whether positive or negative, it is impossible to not experience negative energy from people, places or things.  Go there, but don't stay there.

Choose Love

They Hate That You Are Loved....Oh Well!

Ahhh the face of jealousy, envy, and hate.    Some are close, others are far away but they pay attention to all that you do.  They judge your every move, yet admire you and hate you for being who you are.  The trolls, the lurkers, the low vibrating entities that social media has almost made invisible, but they are there.  That energy does not survive long, in secret mode, they eventually come out and shows themselves, and when they do, it's always a surprise to those who held them close.

The insurmountable energy that people spend on making themselves feel less, by hating on another is sometimes unbelievable.  You never really know why people hold such feelings toward someone they have made their competition, adversary or muse.  It is all in their head.  They have yet to realize that the same abilities live within them. They too have the power to create the life that they want.  However, instead, they focus on your greatness while denying their own.  They hate the fact that you are loved because they are unable to give that love to themselves or others.   Please, whatever you do, do not make that your problem.

I am here to encourage you to keep going.  The people who are pseudo there for you will eventually be revealed.  When you are elevating yourself, those who can not go with you will eventually be removed from your life. Everyone will not be allowed to reap the benefits of your cup being full. The universe removes people and replace them with people who are more aligned with who you are becoming.  I went through a period where people were falling off left and right, I thought wow I am losing people. But the fact was, people were losing me.  Someone even made the comment that there must be something wrong with me.  I had to laugh because at that point I realized that she was one of the people that needed to be removed and eventually she did remove herself.  

The tides are changing, some people will make the decision to live a better life, grow in love, create better friendships, and just live a great life.  Others will be doing the same shit they did ten years ago, let them.  Let them judge you while you travel the world, let them stay in their same mode of living, while you fall in love with the man of your dreams, let them sell themselves short (literally) while you create more love and abundance around you.   Never be mad when people fall off, let them, I guarantee your life will get better.

Peace & Love

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Your Reality

I write about real life things and events. I write about things people are embarrassed to talk about.  I don't live in a perfect world nor do I frequent fantasy island.  I am learning that people are ashamed of their opinion and try to assimilate to what is popular. What a life! I believe we create our own misery by trying to fit in with things that have nothing to do with you.

I have always been the one that did things differently and I encourage you to step out of your comfort zone.  There is power in being an individual.  There are gifts that we all have and can bring to the table, but if we are afraid of those who are smarter than us, better looking than us, or more articulate than us, then we stunt our own growth.  There is something to be learned from everyone.  There is power in allowing someone to voice their opinion that may be different than yours.  We are not looking to be understood just respected.  To us, you look the same, sound the same, speak the same, think the same, there is no originality in that.  There is no growth in staying within your comfortable opinion.

I don't fear those who are the same.  I often wonder how does that affect a person psychologically when there is literally no growth.  When you get to the point where you feel there is nothing to be learned from another, you become like a dead weed, blowing in the wind, looking for a tree to root again, but all has been lost.  You will have nothing to turn to but your own shortcomings, in which you will pass on to generation to generation. 

Face your fears, do what feels uncomfortable and watch how magical life can be.

Peace & Love

SHAME Love, Lies & Lust!

Some People Lie........

The penis doesn't lie, so stop lying on your penis.

Some of you men need to stop lying on your penis.  I always find it funny when a man (or boy for that matter) goes out gathering women to screw around with when they know that they do not have the proper equipment to be sleeping around with anyone.  This does not say that because you have a large penis, that your life is great, and you have free range with the vagina.  Large penis sometimes cum too fast, and sometimes is attached to a natural born fuckboy, so it too has its burdens.

You better have some really deep pockets to keep that woman satisfied and for her to forgive and forget what you lack.  If you are lucky maybe she's never had a Mandingo rearrange her paradise in a way that makes her not even consider anything less than 7 inches.  (I'm being generous here).  The best line that those little peter peckers always say is, "I can eat".  Oh yeah, sure you can.  But who wants to be licked forever?  At some point, a woman wants to be inserted with some power behind it. (Or is that just me?)  

The penis comes in all shapes, sizes, and colors,  there is something for everyone to choose from. Ladies, choose wisely, sometimes good things come in small packages.  However, watch out for that man that goes around claiming "he got it".  Make sure you verify exactly what he got because sometimes it's a small package with even smaller benefits. 

The Amazing Change....Are you Ready?

There are changes taking place in all aspects of our lives.  Some of us are waking up and others are remaining sleep.  The truth would be too hard for them to bare, so its easier to lay dormant than to seek true freedom.   To recognize your expired thoughts are no longer useful in this day and time. Imagine believing something all your life only to learn that it was all a lie.  But the truth would indeed set you free if you choose to accept it.  That is the key, my friends.  To accept that what you have chosen to believe is not indeed what will set you free.

Stepping out and doing something that you have never done.  Moving into your new life fearlessly and not looking back.  This new era is requiring that you no longer celebrate the past, but move forward and create new realities for yourself and not believe so much in what you have been told.   Use your energy for doing something magical.  In this reality, things can be staged, at least be the star of your own show.  Make magic and create and live the life that is best for you.

Fall in love over and over again.  Have a lot of sex and fill your heart with what you desire the most.  The time is now.   The stars and the moon will support our transition. The changes that are taking place really is not for the faint of heart.  It is what is required from your soul.  To live and have a bunch of experiences that test you, change you and help you grow into the amazing being you are.   There is no way around it.  The universe tends to give us more of what we think about.  Think about it, see it, feel it believe it and watch it appear.  I am telling you it has made me a millionaire.  The universe provides so I can provide for others.  We are all here to do and be what each one of us needs.

If you want a better love, be a better lover.  If you want a new husband, be a new wife.  If you want to eat healthily and look slim, just be healthy and you will start to look slim.  Remember, we are the creators.  We determine what kind of life we want.  And please do yourself a favor, forget what other people think.    You were not designed for them, it is your life.  We are not all here to be on the same program. We are vast and too unique as individuals to follow the same program.  Break the cycle and be free and live by your own will, because you have the power to do so. 

Love & Power

The Past ReVisits...

Have you ever noticed how after you have done all this work to get over a relationship, to better yourself, to invest in yourself, then that same slime that broke your heart shows up with flowers and wine?  Yes, the past.  The past comes back like an unwanted memory.  The past comes back to check-in and reminds you of where you have come from and if you want to go for one more ride on the jackass of comfort and reliability.





When you can look back at the past and realize that you have come along way, you get a better understanding of why things happen the way that they did.  The tears, the isolation, the starting over have all been worth it.  As you look at your new self in the mirror you may also realize how strong you are and how you should really congratulate yourself for making it this far without having to kill, steal or destroy another human being in the process.  You may have had to get rid of a few humans because only the ones that are able to stand strong and get through this transformation with you are the ones that help celebrate the new you.  All things that no longer serve your highest good must fall away to help facilitate the new. 

So when that X calls, don't answer, block and delete.  He/she no longers fits into the new you that you have become.  Your standards have changed.  You did not come this far to entertain any of the nonsense that was so appealing before.  When that job is no longer satisfying your need for success or that paycheck does not represent your worth, you have the power to change it.  You have the power to create the life you want, all you have to do is make up your mind, believe it and receive it! 

Transformation to our highest good is always painful, confusing, lonely, but it is what we need to feel in order to change and move into the next chapter of our life.  Imagine being a person that never changes.  A person that goes through life on autopilot, never looking pass anything that can be seen with the naked eye.  Getting into a systematic way of living is the death of life, it's counterproductive and goes against what you are born to do, or destined to be.  Live your life!  Create something new, because the new you requires it.  The new you requires you to not look back, and to keep pushing forward! Live abundantly as if you already have everything you need, because you do indeed, have everything you need, at every given moment.  :)