Love Lee

"If there is something beyond love, I have reached that point and passed it".

There is not a feeling more special than love. It's as necessary as oxygen. To not allow it to flourish in your life is depriving yourself to fully breath. Everyone needs it at some point in their life. Everyone wants it, whether they admit it or not. It creates life and it can also destroy it if not properly handled.

I've been in love, I believe I fall in love with something everyday. I have loved, each time differently, but none stronger than the first. Magical and new, fresh like the fist rain in the spring time. Awakening in me emotions that I knew not existed, but glad they found their way to me. More careful the next time, found out that it could hurt, but not enough for me not to want it again, again and again. I know if it is given to me, then it is a gift, I understand the importance of taking care of it and staying true. So I give it with purity and truth. With all that God has given,all that the earth and universe supplies,I shall swallow myself in it. Swallow myself in he that shares, them that share, those that give.

I love being, giving,receiving,showing,expressing, experiencing love.

Blondie's Trip

It was a nice day today, so I decided to visit one of my favorite city's,Berkeley. Well,let me say as a child it was one of my favorite places to be. I grew up there a large part of my adolescence, so there are a lot of memories that were created there.

Upon my arrival we decided to visit he legendary Blondie's Pizza. You know the large pepperoni with cheese and a coke. Now they have several varieties that you can get,but I always go with the traditional. I was very disappointed that the slices were small compared to what they used to be, well at least our slices were. I also found the general attitude in Berkeley to be rude and unfriendly. As we were leaving Blondie's I said excuse me to a lady and she completely ignored me, I mean she literally ignored me, as I sat there with my child in her stroller needing the space to get by. I said again.."Ummm excuse me". She looked at me as if she was irritated and continued to look at the menu, at that moment I felt like taking it to West Oakland and going bad on her little chubby ass, but instead I created enough space just to let her know I will run over your ass and kept it movin'. I know I look very young for my age and that was probably the reason for her disgusting attitude, but honey please!

I went to a Walgreen's which is a store that was not there many years ago and the man that worked there was eagerly saying hello to everyone, but when I reached the counter to pay for my $8 finger nail polish, he did not say a word and this was after I said hello. Then he didn't even care to bag my product. I was pretty ticked off, so much so that I got back in line, addressed him with a "Hello, can you I have a bag please"? He looked shocked and a little embarrassed and probably thought I was a secret shopper or something. It didn't matter I refuse to be treated rudely by people in general, but even more so from people who are not from this country. How is it that you have the nerve to be rude to me and this is not your country? You are a freakin' visitor! More than likely you are here because somewhere down the line, my people made it possible for you to be here, where is your gratitude?

I will not be traveling to Berkeley Telegraph area for awhile. Although I love Berkeley I am going to say that the recession has caused people to lose their mind and today they wanted me to join them. I will continue to visit other small places that I love that provide great service and are happy to see me coming, because if I have to endure the unnecessary rudeness and bullshit attitudes I dealt with today, it may not be healthy for them.

Peace Ya'll

Moving On....

There are so many cycles to life. I believe we go through phases as part of our growth and changes are made to either force us to become better or remind us that we are in the same fuck up situation. Sometimes people choose to be in a sad existence. I really can't be bothered. Living in a cess pool of denial and self deprecation, who needs that?

So I am moving on. I see it. You don't realize that you have become what it is you hate in others. You missed the point of your own fucked up way of thinking and living. Instead you kill yourself daily, with that liquid disease. I would feel sorry for you, but I can not.

It's funny how even the happiest person can be drowned out by misery if you stick around it long enough. So this is where I exit. I tried. To get rid of you is no real loss to me, biology has us linked forever, but only half way. I wish so much more for you in your life. I hope you find your way and along the way, you become a better person. I let you go before, and my kind heart found you and let you in again. Those were the most peaceful moments in my life, so I am going back to that.

I have always known that I can do more for people, then they can do for me, and I accept that fate. I am a dynamic person so I give off energy that people are curious about. I do not have a point to prove, my spirit says enough. I observe and I understand that even the most educated can be the most ignorant people,it's almost appauling. But it just confirms what I believe, education cannot change what you are, and it barely gives you the right to say what it is you think you know.

Good Bye, I wish you all of the best life has to offer. I have very broad wings to spread and everyone's waiting.

Different Than You

All my life I've had significant experiences that help me become the woman I am and the woman I will be. Life to me is filled with lessons that either we learn from or continue to repeat. Some of us learn quick, others do not learn at all.

I have also been one that believes in the freedom that truth allows, so I try to live my life in the light. I acknowledge my imperfections, nurture them and accept them as a part of me. Never will I confess perfection or claim that I know it all, I will leave that to the idiots. I will say I talk what I know, my experience allows me to. And anything I say I can definitely back it up. I try to steer clear of people who talk too much about nothing or say demeaning things on behalf of ignorance, I know I am not like them the minute I walk into the room. I will never be like them, because I am different.

I choose freedom, instead of a closed mind.
I choose truth, instead of denial.
I choose to live, instead of just existing.
I choose to excel, instead of just get by.
I choose to love, instead of hate

What's in me God made.

What Are U Made of?

Some people are made out of sand.
Some people are made out of clay.
Some people are made out of dirt.
While others may be made out of shit.

Some people are made out of rock.
Some people are made out of stone.
Some people are made out of bone.
While others are made out of gold.

Some people are made out of water.
Some people are made out of flesh.
Some people are made out of heart.
While others are made out of just things.

Since there are so many ways you could have been made
Your fate is determined by what ground you've laid.
Whether strong or weak, hard or soft whatever it is you may be
Is the mirror a true reflection of what you see?

So I ask, what are U made of?

The Cut Off.....

Yeah, so ummmmmm there is nothing more bothersome to me than a man having heavy equipment and not knowing how to work it. Damn! What a waste!

I have been seeing this guy on and off for about a year. Nothing special really,nice to hang out with, but a little too bitchy and boyish for me,so I can only tolerate him in small doses. Now, after this last little rapture, I've decided to completely cut him off, he is just as lame as the guy that introduced us. He is a good father and I wish him the best...toodles..again.

Moving forward and looking forward to the August festivities. It will be my first time going to an award show and participating in a fund raiser that is actually for a good cause. It will also be the month that my book is officially on the market. The last quarter of the year should be great and filled with all that God promised.

I hope everyone is having a great summer, I am so far!

Please Don't Date Me-100 Reason's Why

OMGoodness!

This is one of those nights that I sat back and reflected on my accomplishments so far. It is also one of those nights when I can not sleep because my brain is in overload and I am imagining all the things that are in the process of coming into fruition.

One....my book will be published this month!!!! Please Don't Date Me. I am more than thrilled and I am working on volume II and my third book. That is my first love, writing.

Two...I will be moving. I thought about several places to move,thought of even going back to the ATL, but God said stay posted for a while longer. My daughter is still in school and the move would probably be traumatic for her. I get to shop for all new furniture and stuff. Yippee!!

Three...Where the hell is my husband!! LOL!! I gotta laugh at myself on that one. I know God is preparing me and him, because I know I am a piece of work!

Peace & Love Ya'll Gotta Get Some Sleep!

Black and Unfamous....

Wow, there's a new group of people that have surfaced in my neighborhood. They are called the "Elite". You know the well established black people with somewhat deep pockets. I say somewhat because, I am really not sure how deep. Don't really care.But to give you an idea I must say they consist of mostly married women, with wealthy husbands. Some may cheat others may not (and I am talkin' about the woman since I see them out the most). I have seen their husbands out on other occasions, but did not know that they were the husbands that belong to these particular type of women, that in itself is another story. (hehe) Gosh they dog their husbands so bad, I am almost sure that they (meaning the husbands) are cheating as well. I think some think that is a perk of being somewhat wealthy. When they are in the presence of each other, the front is on thick. They act as if they are the perfect wives,others just don't bring their husbands at all, I guess no time for putting on that front.

Anywho.

They sit out at local bar's get incredibly drunk. I mean wasted and go home. This is not a weekend thing. It usually takes place any time during the week. I happen to fall into a place on a early week day and there they were in full effect. The conversation was bleak,it got a little more interesting when the alcohol took effect. The husbands began to ask questions and as you may know I do not like married men asking me anything, so I have a fake name and fake information. You will never walk into a bar alone acting like you know me. Never. The woman just watched from afar, checking to see what type of woman I am. Watching to see if I was going to do some shit on the under. Well, ladies, I would not want your man even if he were single. I keep it real simple. His money will not ever entice me. You will never leave because the money is just too good and he will never leave because it would cost too much money, so the cycle continues. One lady was waiting on her man hand and foot, maybe because they were the only couple that was not married and she looked a little insecure. She was the very accommodating type. The type that would be mad at the woman instead of her man for cheating. Ok,good for you.

I am sure there are circles of people that get together and shoot the breeze in a natural way on all levels of life. The kind that it does not matter that your income is or your tax bracket, they are just good people. The demise of the institution of marriage is on the rise and it is because of the people that do it for the wrong reasons. Get it together, make love and mean it. Life is really good, Do you really have to live in a fake existence pretending that it is all good in your hood? Now if they really wanted to step their game up,I would take them to hang out with my friends from the other side of life. The Self-made Millionaires Club, gotta love a man who goes out and get's it and chick's too!

No one is quite ready.