Have You Ever Been In Love?

Have you ever been in love? 

Have you ever felt love so strong that it stirs your soul so deep, it keeps you wanting more?  Have you ever given in to the desire to be loved only to find yourself in the arms of love?  Holding you close, keeping you warm.  Whispering, I love you's in the middle of the night; starring at you while you sleep, yes, that kind of love.

The kind of love that you feel long after his physical presence has left the room.  His touch lingering on your skin, his kiss stamped all over your body.  Giving yourself completely without a second thought.  Have you ever felt that?   A presence of love so strong that you consider it your armor.  Protecting you against those who have never experienced such love.  Waving my hand, and wishing you the best because I really hope you feel it one day.

Thinking of him, the phone rings, and it's him.  Completing your thoughts, satisfying your every need without having to ask, because he has been paying attention.  Comfort in the time of storms.  Every day is a breeze because of your love.  Nothing even matters because of you, I am free.  Free to dive deep in your ocean of love.  It is you. The perfect example of love, thankful that you shared it with me, unselfishly.   No one could ever fool me to believe that love is not real.  Even in its fakest form, it still feels just as real.  Love yourself enough to know the difference.

Being in love is knowing that love is the only real thing.  Once you feel love, there is nothing that can replace or compare to that feeling.  It's magical, sacred and transformative.  Everybody needs love, the lack of it brings out the pettiness of those who vibrate low.  Send them love.  Never compromise your love for the comfort of someone else. Do not abuse your love, you will lose it and forever be looking for it again.   If you have ever been in love you know that love is to be shared, honored, and handled in the most gentle of ways.  Be the love you desire.


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The Angry Mama's Boy!

Before you read, if you are turned off by curse words, turn off my blog, it's not for you.

Have you ever had a man that loved and hated his mother?  Loved her because that's what you are supposed to do, but hated her because his father wasn't around.  She'll ridicule him to make him feel less of a man unless he is doing something for her.  God forbid if he gets a woman and she has no man.  She will make him her makeshift husband.  She will make it a point to discredit his woman and interfere in the relationship.  This mother is only a problem if the son allows her to be.  It is not your job to go to battle with her, because if you do, you might lose him.  If he does not stand up for you to her, especially when she's wrong, then you are just a body in a relationship.

I dated a man who made it a point to deceive any woman that he came across.  It took me some time to see clearly.  Love has a way of making people appear greater than they really are.  Our perception gets cloudy by our desire to have someone.  There are no grey areas with my love, so once the decision is made that we are a couple then that is how I proceed.  He, on the other hand, had no idea about relationships or how to relate to women. (Now, women, if you ever run across a man who has no respect, no love and despises his mother, run as fast as you can because that is what you'll be getting.)  Hindsight is 20/20.

Men with mother issues, often take their frustration out on every woman that he comes across.  He'll be over-critical, complain all the damn time, point out your flaws, and is often abusive.  It's not you he's mad at, it's his mother and missing father. He'll make all kinds of excuses to justify his immature actions, but unless he's able to confront his own issues, pain or his mother, nothing will change.  He'll go through life justifying his limiting beliefs and recruit others to collaborate on his misery.  Who needs that?

If your man has a habit of fucking up, don't make it a habit of accepting it.   You are not his mother.  Take a look at yourself and realize that you can definitely do better.  If he is willing and makes a serious effort to be in a loving relationship, you determine if he's worth it. Be clear about what you want from a man or woman.  Write it down, visualize it, because you can have it.  Never stay in a relationship where the down times outweigh the happy times. Don't lose yourself to the point where your dreams die, you lack ambition or your self-esteem gets crushed, that is not what you are here for.  Unless a man is able to acknowledge you as the amazing creator that you are, keep it movin'!



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The Purge.....

Changing also means purging.

Transforming also means leaving those old habits, thoughts, and people in the rear view.  Letting go of the things that no longer serve your highest good or the person that you are becoming, all must be left behind.   You have to not only forgive people and let them go you have to replace them with people who know your worth and value your time.  And let me be the first to say that it is not always an easy transition.

When you begin to see friendships change or dissipate, let them.  When you realize that you are surrounded by people who are only close because they want to be the first to see you fail, dismiss them without a second thought.  When people show you time and time again who they are, believe them.   Even the big bad wolf eventually reveals itself to the unsuspecting lamb.  Everything hidden will be revealed.  You can acknowledge someone's inability to see your worth, but you do not have to have them in your space unless you want too.

Silent claps filled with the air of jealousy and disappointment in their own lives; that, my loves, have nothing to do with you.  Be willing to disappear and become an empty space in the life of someone who does not support your dreams or have anything nice or sweet to say.  Let them leave your space and preserve your energy for the ones that cheer and cheer loudly.   Find your tribe, and let them find theirs.  You are ascending to heights that they can never dream of and you can not take them with you and why would you want to?

You may have to be alone in observation mode before you take your true flight.   In order to make better decisions, in order to love better, in order to receive the abundance that you deserve, you have to find out who you are and what you want.   Go inside and get to know yourself.  Find out what you are made of.  Do not let anyone else determine who you are.  Some may see your light and watch you shine.  Once they see your potential, their fear sets in.    Release with compassion.  A good life to them may only consist of a free happy meal and a $2.50 drink, let them revel in it.  Everyone does not have the ability to imagine more for themselves, they're limited in thought and actions.  Allow them to live the life they deserve.

You may experience drawbacks and want the comfort of what you think you know.  Deny it, going back to comfort will only delay your growing process.  Growing can be painful, but the other side of that pain is pure love.  It's a better version of yourself, its a whole new world right inside of you.  Be fearless, Be Love and Never Settle for crumbs when you can have the whole damn meal!!

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The Mind is a Terrible thing to Waste

The mind, the most complex organ that we don't use.   I won't bore you with the biology of the mind, you can google those specifics.  I want to know how you are using your mind to get all the things, people or places that you desire.  It is your special power; your own unique navigator that you can control for the good and bad of you.

Let's talk about the imagination.  The most magical part of our existence.  If you can imagine it, create the feeling of what it is, then it is yours.  If you can dream it, that's manifestation at its best.  There is nothing that you can think in your mind that can not come into fruition.  It is like you are summoning the universe to give you what you desire and often she does.  What do you believe?  What do you believe in? What makes it real to you?  Real or imagined, it all exists.

What do you think about the most? Your subconscious mind knows all.  It is the amp behind your thoughts, and beliefs about yourself and others. It governs our behavior.  It can trip us up by always giving us what we are comfortable with because it does not enjoy taking risks.   That's where your mind steps in, and becomes the deciding factor in your growing and experiencing the other side of greatness.  Even if its a mistake, there is growth in the lesson, at least that is the intention.

Have you ever kept making the same mistake?  Choosing the same relationship? Drama with the same people?  Reliving the past?  You subconscious will always give you what you are comfortable with. What you think about the most is the dominant vibration you're sending.   What you send you receive.  The next time you find yourself worrying and thinking about things in a negative manner, change that thought.  Instead, think about making love, being kissed or create a happy thought that emotionally makes you feel good. Think about how wonderfully made you are and how you have so much to give to the world.  Think about who you want in your life and how you will do things differently.  Think about me.

Get in the habit of beginning your day with a positive thought.  When you lay down for the night dream before you close your eyes.  Imagine what you desire the most is already here, and expect it to appear.  That is what the mind does, it gives you what you desire.  Just believe.  Don't waste your thoughts on things that do not matter.  Do not willingly give your energy to entities that have no substance.  Preserve and protect your being and do not let it go to waste.

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Why are you Single?

Why are you single?

I used to cringe when someone asked me that question.  It used to make me feel like I needed to be in a relationship.  It made me feel like there was something wrong with being single.  Then I started to think, what is wrong with being single?  My conclusion.......absolutely nothing!

Single is the place where I have been able to explore myself as a woman.  It is been where my greatest love was developed.  Single is, if I want to have dinner with you, I will.  And if I want to take a train ride with someone else, I can.  My only obligation is me.  It makes me fully responsible for my happiness. There are people who are in marriages, who have yet to find themselves.  They do not know themselves or the person they married. There are several people in relationships, trying to break that soul tie. A soul tie that was created out of the need to have someone in their bed.  If I wanted to be married,  all I have to do is say yes, but I am not the one to be in a relationship just for the sake of having a man or husband.  Growth and understanding of self, has been a mission that only I can complete.  

I am not a woman in waiting.  I am not waiting on a man to complete me.  I am doing that myself.  I want to be fully evolved to the level of my next love.   I am beyond the level of infatuation.  The stronger I love myself, the stronger our love will be.  I am single because that is how I entered the world.  I am not part of the collective that says that you have to be with someone in order to exist or validated.   I am existing in my own dreams, and once he appears he will join me in this magical realm. Divine timing will make it exist.

I am not religious.  My religion is me. There are restrictions in religion that no human can attain.  My spirit is free and can not be defined by yearly rituals, commandments, and other indoctrinated acts.  My husband is already my husband, wherever he is, he has his own journey and eventually, he will be presented to me.  We will have stories to tell and moments to share because once we get together it will ignite another level of love in us.  A matrimony of love and understanding that will surpass anything either of us has ever experienced.

So the next time someone asks you why are you single? Tell them because you are minding your own business.  Every single person is not looking for a mate.  Being married is not the goal of every single woman.  And if it is, that is your prerogative.  You should never be judged for the season you are in because seasons change.  Enjoy and savor where you are right now. I can not tell you how sweet it is to wake up on a Saturday morning with options.

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Let It Burn.....

We learn our greatest lessons through pain.

I have been in love and have been hurt by that same person.  I was in love with a  man who could not see me.  We looked nice holding hands and he looked nice by being seen with me.  The sex was blinding, mystical and helped me go further down into the darkness.  He used to always tell me that "People who think highly of you, don't know you."  I did not know at the time, but that was his way of telling me what he thought of me.  He was basically a bum, a science project.  I was listening to his words, but not hearing them.  He was jealous, controlling and I loved him.

When you are in love with someone, you only see what you want to see.  You hope for the best.  You want that person to love you, so you do things to show that you love them.  My intent to show him that he could trust me and that it was ok to love me was fatal mistake number one.   I was a lamb in his wolf's world.  There is nothing worse than loving someone who see's no value in you or themselves.  We not only come with baggage from our previous relationship but what our parents gave us.  He was a broken man, so he lived to discredit me and make me look like a fool for entertaining him in the first place.  I had always dealt with men who were honest, sincere and who knew how to treat a woman.  When I meet him, I was baffled by his view on life and women, he had bad luck with both.  I thought he was an easy fix and a solid distraction.   I believed that eventually, he would be his best, but that never happened.  Mistake number two, falling in love with potential.  

There were things that brought us together, like being raised by one parent, while not really knowing the other.  My father was missing and the two step-fathers that were in my life, only showed me what I did not want.  I saw many things in my life that formed my opinion of men and women who put other people before them in the name of love.  Yet,  I was still willing to be open to love, have love, because I craved it, without really knowing what it was. I had also forgotten one crucial element to any relationship and that is to love myself.  Once I started that journey of self-love.  I started to see this man, for who and what he really was.  We can only be deceived if we refuse to see what we need to.  The signs are always there, the universe always protects and gives us warnings before the final tower moment.  The moment that shakes us to the core, so much so that we are forced to change, forced to consult the higher self to become a better, lover, mother, friend, wife, husband.  If you are around people that experience constant bad luck and drama, its because they are refusing to change.

That man was brought into my life to help me have standards and create boundaries.  I was the kind of woman, who had been in a previous long-term relationship with a man who told me the truth.  He loved me with everything he had and I loved him. His actions confirmed what he was feeling and his promises were never broken.  When he passed, I thought that all men, were men, and sadly that is not the case.  That guy was there to help show me what I needed to change.  Sometimes we have to thank people when shit doesn't work out.  Cry about it for a second or two, then get back up and say thank you, motherfuckah! Adios!

I am not sure of what that X  is doing these days.  It's been many years since I left for the final time.  I completely let go and wished him the best.  The woman that I have become, is the woman that he thought he couldn't have in the first place.  The temporary pain eventually subsides and if you are able to complete the challenge by not revisiting a toxic relationship, the reward is moving to the next level..   There are levels to this shit. Dimensions, yet to be explored.  Do not settle for comfort, what's familiar, or believe you can't do better, because you can. You must take the time to do the necessary work on yourself, or you will repeat the cycle until the lesson is learned; the universe is generous that way.  It will be lessons after lessons, with different faces until you get it.

I always thought I knew everything about love, but it wasn't until I put that love energy into myself that has given me the greatest satisfaction.   It draws the right people in and keeps the wrong people away.  When you lack nothing and become whole with oneself, there is nothing or no one that can make you see yourself differently.  Love yourself so tough, that you could care less what people think.  Their thoughts are not your business.   Love fearlessly, be kind and live in the moment.  Every day is another chance to get it right.

Love and More Love

Love on the Run.....

You get close, then you pull away.  It feels so good, but you get afraid of it and break away. Only to return, craving for what only I can give you.  It is everything that you've asked for, yet when it comes you are not ready.  You long for a real connection and not the superficial relationships that are based on the value of your car.   You want more and I need more.  So why are you running?

This life always affords us the things that we want.  Although we often lose things and people, it is all wrapped up in a lesson that needs to be learned.  What lessons are you learning?  How many times are you going to block what you want the most?  Don't you know that love is eternal?  It will appear when you least expect it, so expect it and watch it bloom.  We must be open to love and not fear the reoccurrence of what we have already experienced.  In order to get a different result, we must be different ourselves. The beginning and the end is locked within us. Set yourself free. ` Heartbreak often makes us cautious and not trust.  But we must take that risk.  We must take a dive into the unknown and embrace what we truly desire.   Our truth lies on the other side of what we fear.

Surrendering to love is always a risk, but isn't is worth the softness of my lips as we kiss?  Isn't it worth coming to join me in this realm of life, belonging to only you?  Isn't it worth making love until the rim of the sun rises?   Isn't it worth looking into the eyes of fate?  Isn't it worth it to touch my skin at your leisure?  Isn't it worth it to see your dreams come to life?  Familiarity is what you will feel when the completion of what you manifested appears.  You will know, from never knowing.  It will all make sense because now you do.  Let me be the first to say, it feels so good to be loved by you, so stop running.


Love Forever and Ever.