I had the privalege to run into a lot of fun and interesting facts along my journey. I can not help but share with you the things that I found a bit surprising....but true.
1. I did not know that I was a celebrity...........I had more people talking about me than I care to know..thanks for caring...take a picture trick!.......lol
2. That misery not only loves company, but it recruits on a regular basis.
3. There are more gay men who are married than you can imagine.
4. There are some places in America, that are like a 3rd world country.
5. Prostitution is not only still alive, but is passed down like a family heirloom.
6. Loving yourself is still the greatest love of all.
7. There are some people who believe that death is the only hope.
8. Women still do not trust other women. (Some of them have good reason).
9. There are still women who would rather be with someone, than "the one".
10. Everything comes to an end.
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Gone Long Enough...........
Hello, Hi! Happy New Year!
And I am back!
According to the Chinese, this is the Year of the Rat (2008). A year of new beginnings, a time to make a fresh start. And yes, I am feeling just that.
I have been on hiatus for the last three months. I took some time to visit some people, breathe some fresh air, and just live. There was no worry about bills, no car, just the clothes on my back and a little flexibility. And I tell ya', it was well worth it.
I decided not to go back to the ATL, although lovely, my heart brought me back to good ole' California. It was the unexpected death of my daughter's father that became my true reality check. I ran into some interesting people along the way, found some new family members, and learned that in 2008 there are people that still eat chitterlings, or shitlings as I call them.
The death of Justin, really shook me. He was the most intense love I have ever had. Although we could not be together, he was my best friend and the relationship taught me the most about what love is. I will forever miss him and cherish the time that we had.
During this time off, I could not write anything. My mind was filled with so many images that I could not put them on paper. I was also involved with a man that was 10 years younger than me, and that was a very nice relationship. He was what I needed at that time, and believe me you, he fulfilled the need.....heheheh! But even that had to end. For it was the reality of life that brought me back from Gilligan's Island, and placed me back into the realms of real life. What a lovely place to have gone. I forgave those that needed to be forgiven, I loved those that needed my love, and I helped those that needed my help. I have left those that needed to be left in my past, realizing they were never on my level anyway, and moved on to something greater than I expected. My life is not be shared with the simple minds, for they will bore the hell out of me. Yes, it's great being me! Too kind that heart of mine; now the time has come to continue evolving. Live to my full potential. So for those of you who have kept up with my blog, thank you very much. Plan to hear stories of my adventures, and everyday life.
Smooches,
Peace & Blessings
And I am back!
According to the Chinese, this is the Year of the Rat (2008). A year of new beginnings, a time to make a fresh start. And yes, I am feeling just that.
I have been on hiatus for the last three months. I took some time to visit some people, breathe some fresh air, and just live. There was no worry about bills, no car, just the clothes on my back and a little flexibility. And I tell ya', it was well worth it.
I decided not to go back to the ATL, although lovely, my heart brought me back to good ole' California. It was the unexpected death of my daughter's father that became my true reality check. I ran into some interesting people along the way, found some new family members, and learned that in 2008 there are people that still eat chitterlings, or shitlings as I call them.
The death of Justin, really shook me. He was the most intense love I have ever had. Although we could not be together, he was my best friend and the relationship taught me the most about what love is. I will forever miss him and cherish the time that we had.
During this time off, I could not write anything. My mind was filled with so many images that I could not put them on paper. I was also involved with a man that was 10 years younger than me, and that was a very nice relationship. He was what I needed at that time, and believe me you, he fulfilled the need.....heheheh! But even that had to end. For it was the reality of life that brought me back from Gilligan's Island, and placed me back into the realms of real life. What a lovely place to have gone. I forgave those that needed to be forgiven, I loved those that needed my love, and I helped those that needed my help. I have left those that needed to be left in my past, realizing they were never on my level anyway, and moved on to something greater than I expected. My life is not be shared with the simple minds, for they will bore the hell out of me. Yes, it's great being me! Too kind that heart of mine; now the time has come to continue evolving. Live to my full potential. So for those of you who have kept up with my blog, thank you very much. Plan to hear stories of my adventures, and everyday life.
Smooches,
Peace & Blessings
Thursday, October 4, 2007
Married Men........Ho Hum (ATL)
The other night I took the chance and we out to have a quick drink with one of my girls. The evening was nice. We were at a joint that was definitely for the grown folks per say and the ambiance was real nice and smooth like a double shot of Hennesy.
After scoping the scene of those coming in and out, we were soon approached by two men. They were average and definitely not my type, but seemed to be the most social. Notice I said, "the most social". I immediately noticed that they were married men. You know how I feel about some married men and instead of flashing and giving them "the business",I went along with what they were offering; ya' know drinks, food and conversation. I also thought this was my chance to ask a few questions of the married men whom I will refer to as Dick and Harry.
After a few drinks, that alcohol induced looseness started to sink in. Harry asked me if he was cute. OMG! My response was a bit of surprise to him because I said what difference does it make, you're married. He said, I didn't think you noticed. Really? You're wearing a wedding ring, pal, who wouldn't notice. He laughed and said so if I was ugly or handsome it would not matter because I am married. I replied, exactly. Why should I be the one to stroke your ego? I went on to ask why did they choose me and my friend to talk to as opposed to the other women that were in the place. Dick gave the lame excuse that the only available seats were by us. Harry gave a more believable and realistic response. He said that he would rather sit and talk with the most beautiful women in the place, and if he were to screw up tonight it would be with a beautiful woman as opposed to the other options that appeared to be available. Thanks for the compliment Harry, but you're still married. They both explained how they were just there to have a good time and Dick even said, "He had nothing to lose". Nothing to lose, huh? Not even a wife? He explained nothing to lose because he was not doing anything, just having a good time. Yeah, except buying drinks for beautiful women with the hopes of landing one in the sac. How about bringing your wife and buying her drinks? Oh, that may have stopped when you got married, my bad.
I know that I may be hard on married men maybe because they are the kind that come up to me the most. They are also the most social. I guess in their minds they think if this doesn't work out they can always go home and stick it to their wives, while pretending to stick it to the girl at the bar or in the strip club or the office chick or the waitress. Yeah, ok, I get it. No harm in the imagination. Perhaps, there is an innocence in them buying drinks and having a good time, some wives prefer that their husbands get lost from time to time. There is no harm in flirting , right? And besides, with the rate of cheating women rising their wives may have been out "having a good time" too; I can assure you, they had nothing to lose.
After scoping the scene of those coming in and out, we were soon approached by two men. They were average and definitely not my type, but seemed to be the most social. Notice I said, "the most social". I immediately noticed that they were married men. You know how I feel about some married men and instead of flashing and giving them "the business",I went along with what they were offering; ya' know drinks, food and conversation. I also thought this was my chance to ask a few questions of the married men whom I will refer to as Dick and Harry.
After a few drinks, that alcohol induced looseness started to sink in. Harry asked me if he was cute. OMG! My response was a bit of surprise to him because I said what difference does it make, you're married. He said, I didn't think you noticed. Really? You're wearing a wedding ring, pal, who wouldn't notice. He laughed and said so if I was ugly or handsome it would not matter because I am married. I replied, exactly. Why should I be the one to stroke your ego? I went on to ask why did they choose me and my friend to talk to as opposed to the other women that were in the place. Dick gave the lame excuse that the only available seats were by us. Harry gave a more believable and realistic response. He said that he would rather sit and talk with the most beautiful women in the place, and if he were to screw up tonight it would be with a beautiful woman as opposed to the other options that appeared to be available. Thanks for the compliment Harry, but you're still married. They both explained how they were just there to have a good time and Dick even said, "He had nothing to lose". Nothing to lose, huh? Not even a wife? He explained nothing to lose because he was not doing anything, just having a good time. Yeah, except buying drinks for beautiful women with the hopes of landing one in the sac. How about bringing your wife and buying her drinks? Oh, that may have stopped when you got married, my bad.
I know that I may be hard on married men maybe because they are the kind that come up to me the most. They are also the most social. I guess in their minds they think if this doesn't work out they can always go home and stick it to their wives, while pretending to stick it to the girl at the bar or in the strip club or the office chick or the waitress. Yeah, ok, I get it. No harm in the imagination. Perhaps, there is an innocence in them buying drinks and having a good time, some wives prefer that their husbands get lost from time to time. There is no harm in flirting , right? And besides, with the rate of cheating women rising their wives may have been out "having a good time" too; I can assure you, they had nothing to lose.
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
Karrine Stevens...Hail the Queen!
Shut the F*ck Up!
Why are so many people mad at Karrine. There goes the judgement thing in full force. Why are you so mad? If she were white, she probably would be getting praise from the black men that are trying to stone her to the wall. Why are we so embarrassed by each other. Why do we hold such high regard for others and disdain
for our own.
Look Jackasses! No one has sued her, she must be telling the truth. You have her on your shows to interview her, but then you try to prosecute her as well. Get over yourself you self-righteous bastards! You're just mad that you did not get in on it. Maybe because, she's just not into you...lol.
For all those that choose to judge, try living your life like an open book ASk yourself, are you secure enough in your life to have all your shit exposed and be judged by your peers. You nasty boys! Never mind the thousands of you who are under cover lovers to the other brotha, those of you who cheat on your wives with other men. Oh, Oh what about those that are so insecure with yourself that you can't even maintain a relationship with a woman, yet alone one that would be willing to blow you off!
Get a life, leave the vixen alone. She is doing her thing and doing it well, if I say so myself. If you really want to help someone, help Kim get over Puffy, Diddy PuffWiddy or whatever the cartoon's name is.
Peace & Blow jobs...lol
Why are so many people mad at Karrine. There goes the judgement thing in full force. Why are you so mad? If she were white, she probably would be getting praise from the black men that are trying to stone her to the wall. Why are we so embarrassed by each other. Why do we hold such high regard for others and disdain
for our own.
Look Jackasses! No one has sued her, she must be telling the truth. You have her on your shows to interview her, but then you try to prosecute her as well. Get over yourself you self-righteous bastards! You're just mad that you did not get in on it. Maybe because, she's just not into you...lol.
For all those that choose to judge, try living your life like an open book ASk yourself, are you secure enough in your life to have all your shit exposed and be judged by your peers. You nasty boys! Never mind the thousands of you who are under cover lovers to the other brotha, those of you who cheat on your wives with other men. Oh, Oh what about those that are so insecure with yourself that you can't even maintain a relationship with a woman, yet alone one that would be willing to blow you off!
Get a life, leave the vixen alone. She is doing her thing and doing it well, if I say so myself. If you really want to help someone, help Kim get over Puffy, Diddy PuffWiddy or whatever the cartoon's name is.
Peace & Blow jobs...lol
Missing Her
I miss my daughter. She is the light of my life and the reason I am trying so many avenues to make her happy and to secure her future. My daughter means everything to me.
I am a single mom and if you are single mom, you know how it is. It is not a easy job. I moved from California to Atlanta in order to search and find what it is that I truly want in this life. I have always loved writing, but I can only write when I am alone and my thoughts are clear. For the last year or so many things have been misplaced and out of order for me, yet through it all God has never left me.
This is one of the many sacrifices you make now to make things greater later. If you have ever sacrificed anything for someone you love, then you know what I mean. My daughter is the only constant thing in my life, that supplies an endless amount of love and understanding. She understands me more than most adults. I support her and she supports me. We have the most beautiful relationship a mother can have with her daughter. She is my gift from God, for her I'll do anything to ensure her comfort. Though being away from each other and me being the only parent in her life, it must be hard for her as well. No grandma or grandpa, auntie or uncle can take the place of her mommy and I know that. So I thank her for being strong as well. Soon we'll be together again, that day cannot come soon enough.
Now that I am here writing, I have grown in many ways. I have become more confident in my writing and less concerned about people. No longer will I down play my talents or intelligence to make people feel comfortable around me. I am intelligent first, God just happened to make be beautiful, talented, sexy, witty and all the above. I am super-natural...lol. Yes, tooting my own horn is something I have been reluctant to do. Now, I am embracing just being fabulous, eveyday. Just loving who I am as a woman and who I am becoming as a person, it's such a great feeling and wonderful place. I have let my past control my future long enough. God could not have planned my life better, I have lived it just the way he planned and with no regrets. I believe in doing and living how you want to. Life is too short to live by circumstances, or be in a relationship you don't like, work at a job you can't stand, put up with people who don't care about you. Get rid of all that, free yourself!
It's amazing that you think people may know you, but then they give you advice and you find out they do not have a clue as to who you are. People only treat you how you allow them to. People even make up ways you should be based on the time table of their life. People judge, and that is the most dangerous flaw in human nature. Walk a day in my shoe's then tell me how to live. People close to you, put you down, when they have never been up themselves. The enemy is always working, and I must admit it has done a great job on me for most of my life. That chapter is over.
God takes us through things, when greatness is on the horizon. God is always preparing us for the next phase of our lives, either we are prepared or we are not. My life has never been easy. There is nothing simple about me, I am as complicated as they come. I have had so many experiences and I could have given up, but I am still here climbing that mountain to what is my destiny, while learning to embrace what's to come and share my story. Without this path that came with wrong directions, missed signs and ditches, I would not be the woman I am. I had to find my own way. The journey is not over, this is a new beginning again.
Yes, at this moment I miss my baby so much, but I know in the end all of this would have been worth it.
I love you Special Lee.
I am a single mom and if you are single mom, you know how it is. It is not a easy job. I moved from California to Atlanta in order to search and find what it is that I truly want in this life. I have always loved writing, but I can only write when I am alone and my thoughts are clear. For the last year or so many things have been misplaced and out of order for me, yet through it all God has never left me.
This is one of the many sacrifices you make now to make things greater later. If you have ever sacrificed anything for someone you love, then you know what I mean. My daughter is the only constant thing in my life, that supplies an endless amount of love and understanding. She understands me more than most adults. I support her and she supports me. We have the most beautiful relationship a mother can have with her daughter. She is my gift from God, for her I'll do anything to ensure her comfort. Though being away from each other and me being the only parent in her life, it must be hard for her as well. No grandma or grandpa, auntie or uncle can take the place of her mommy and I know that. So I thank her for being strong as well. Soon we'll be together again, that day cannot come soon enough.
Now that I am here writing, I have grown in many ways. I have become more confident in my writing and less concerned about people. No longer will I down play my talents or intelligence to make people feel comfortable around me. I am intelligent first, God just happened to make be beautiful, talented, sexy, witty and all the above. I am super-natural...lol. Yes, tooting my own horn is something I have been reluctant to do. Now, I am embracing just being fabulous, eveyday. Just loving who I am as a woman and who I am becoming as a person, it's such a great feeling and wonderful place. I have let my past control my future long enough. God could not have planned my life better, I have lived it just the way he planned and with no regrets. I believe in doing and living how you want to. Life is too short to live by circumstances, or be in a relationship you don't like, work at a job you can't stand, put up with people who don't care about you. Get rid of all that, free yourself!
It's amazing that you think people may know you, but then they give you advice and you find out they do not have a clue as to who you are. People only treat you how you allow them to. People even make up ways you should be based on the time table of their life. People judge, and that is the most dangerous flaw in human nature. Walk a day in my shoe's then tell me how to live. People close to you, put you down, when they have never been up themselves. The enemy is always working, and I must admit it has done a great job on me for most of my life. That chapter is over.
God takes us through things, when greatness is on the horizon. God is always preparing us for the next phase of our lives, either we are prepared or we are not. My life has never been easy. There is nothing simple about me, I am as complicated as they come. I have had so many experiences and I could have given up, but I am still here climbing that mountain to what is my destiny, while learning to embrace what's to come and share my story. Without this path that came with wrong directions, missed signs and ditches, I would not be the woman I am. I had to find my own way. The journey is not over, this is a new beginning again.
Yes, at this moment I miss my baby so much, but I know in the end all of this would have been worth it.
I love you Special Lee.
Monday, October 1, 2007
Disclaimer...hehehe
I want to clarify my comment on maried men being like shitty carpets, though funny, it may seem a little harsh. I was talking about those married men who cheat, lie and steal. Those married men that approach me with the, "I am not happy at home" line (#6 on the Please Don't Date Me blog) are annoying and ridiculous. You know who you are.
When you come my way, you may want to keep going because I am going to tell you the business!
When you come my way, you may want to keep going because I am going to tell you the business!
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