Thursday, September 5, 2013

Exerpt from SHAME, Love, Lies & Lust


                    Stephan Green

My name is Stephan Green.  I am the CEO of Telkem Communications.  I started this company from the ground up and I am very proud of its accomplishments.  I am a Harvard graduate.  Although the name, Harvard carries prestige, I am more proud of what I’ve done after college.  I have a wife, her name is Sarah. Sarah is the perfect housewife, mother and friend, I used to love her, but now I just care.  I have given her the life that she deserves; I have provided a smooth and comfortable transition from her humble beginnings to a life of luxury.  On the outside we look like the typical suburban couple.  She is the President of the PTA, very busy with the children and I have created another life that better suits my desires.

All my life I have worked.  I have done what my father did for my mother.  I did all that was expected.  My parents could only gave me what they received and I had it down to a science.  I would mimic what they did, it was my best example and appeared to work for them.  My mother appeared to be a happy woman, but my father had numerous affairs, numerous children, yet my mother remained, she stood by his side and loved him until he died.  I wanted my wife to be present, but then again, I did not.  I wanted her to act like she loved me like she did when we first meet, but instead she spent my money to show her appreciation.  I had no connection to my children, they took on the attitude of their mother.  I was the human ATM.  Family vacations were far and few in between.  A couple of years after the twins’ birth things just began to spiral down.  I knew I was pretending on the inside, I knew that my desire to have Shelly would eventually tear us apart, but I was willing to take that chance.  Take the chance on a life that I could never have in public.  A life that would become the reason I lived.  I loved my children and I even at times loved my wife, but that only fulfilled a very small part of my existence.  Shelly made me feel.

Shelly is a tall beautiful woman.  She is my desire.  She makes me feel like I could conquer the world. It was something that my wife used to have and now seriously lacked.  I am not sure if she believed that I could accomplish what I have or even that she was  happy that I did.  Although I was on track to complete the script for my  life, I was left feeling like nothing.  The blood in my veins were an indication that I was an a live human being, but the emptiness in my heart would better describe my bleak existence, so I needed her.
She was warm and attentive.  She asked questions and showed sincere interest.  Then we would make love at the same place at the same time and the same hotel day in and out, weekends or whenever I could get a moment with her.  She was my drug and I was addicted.  No rehab for me.  Who cares that each time I saw her she demanded $1500.  I would take her until my soul died, for me there was nothing else.  Before her, I was a corpse, suicide would confirm it.  Without her I would die.  She was the fuel I needed to tolerate my existing life.  When I talked of a future, she would always tell me to stay with my wife, so I did.
 
 
 
 
 
©2013- SHAME, Loves, Lies & Lust by L. L. Walton
 
 
 
 

 
 
 

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