Wondering.....

I used to wonder why people were so concerned about what I do with my life. I often pondered why would anyone care if I date an average joe blow or a man with millions. Since I am not consumed at all with what people do with their life, it all seemed a bit cumbersome for them to be consumed with mine. Then I began to think.

People have expectations. Sometimes a person's expectations have nothing to do with you. I know that because so many have been placed on me. I could have been this, I could have been that. But what people fail to understand is me. I have been placed on such a high pedestal at times, when people must realize that I am a human first, and I do what I want. I was not brought to this earth to please "people", just me.

There is so much more that goes with my life than people know,and I am glad that I was finally able to shut them out. Now I have my own little private heaven. Who cares what people think. I am a very personal and private person and if you are not invited in, you will be left outside the velvet rope....LOL. People who are consumed with another person's life, has nothing going on in their's.

If I were a people pleaser, I would be married to that baller, who was as asshole. Or married to that man who was as weak as a feeble boy. I would have associated myself with people and situations that would have not been conducive to positive behavior. I would be very popular, but very unhappy. I am not one to sit around and indulge in idle chat, that offers no change. I am not the soccer mom, I am a realist and I keep it real with my child. I am not saying that I choose this journey, but this is the journey that has been chosen for me. I am glad that I think with my heart and mind, believe there are better days, and never settle for anything. I see every decision made as a learning experience. You can not tell anyone about anything, if you have not experienced it yourself. God is my captain, so I follow where he leads.

Even though my journey is far from over, I believe that it is not in vain. The tears that I have cried, the sadness I feel for those who are lost in a crowd and in their souls. I will continue to nurture the hope that I carry in me, even on a perfect day. It will all shine through when I think back and be thankful for how far I have come.

So I suggest you all find your happiness and what being alive means to you. Get involved in your own life. There is no job, money, status, or title that can take the place of what you do with your time on earth, especially if you have children. Spread love and not judgement, use your knowledge unselfishly, don't compare yourself to others, if that was the life God intended for you, you would have it, and last but not least, DO YOU! That's where it begans and ends.
Peace and Love Ya'll!