Spring

I love the Spring. It is a time of new beginings, fresh starts and getting rid of what's old. I love the fact that my daughter was born in the Spring she gave me a new life. My second daughter will be born in the Summer and she will change my life. I enjoy how the earth naturally gives you and itself what it needs, it's the order of life.

I never thought that after 15 years that I would have another child. I guess somewhere deep I always wanted one, and as you release your thoughts the universe process them into existance. As shocked as I was, I am more than overjoyed. Two girls that will take care of me and each other, spread my love to their children and continue this legacy of love that began with me. For that I am thankful.

I guess you are wondering after all these blogs on singlehood and dating, who could the father be? It is that guy. That long-term guy that I still do not want to marry or get serious with. He's just not worthy. He played his part and here is where the scene closes. Some say so he was good enough to sleep with, have a baby, but not to marry or be with? Yes, he was good at what he did, but light weight in the brain. Superficial on every level, a fun 5 year romp! What else can I say, but be honest with him, you can't turn a lame into a man, and that's that.

Am I worried about finding someone to be with on the long term or committment level? Nah, that area has never been a problem for me, it's just a matter of choosing who will fit that area of my life and be great for my children. My children are the most important aspect of my life. Besides, I am a good girl, (except when I go bad) and there are positive men in my life that are dear and close friends who would make great father figures, uncles and god-fathers, no worries here. The birth of my daughter will just make me more careful about my choices. Take a good look a the whole package as opposed to a part of it. (Even though it may be the part I enjoy the most:).

Smooches