Ummm...so yeah..

I have simply been MIA. I know, I know. I am trying to stay consistent with the bloggering and stuff, but my life is filled with so many things that are happening, the last thing that I have real time to do is go to sleep. And when I do finally go to sleep I am knocked out for realz. There is a change that is taking place in my life and I can not even tell you how excited and happy I am. Learning about self and appreciating life is in itself a great gift that God has given to everyone who lives and breathes. Some of us find it and unfortunately some of us do not.

I have found that you are not serving someone, helping someone or living your life as an example for those who could probably use your experience to make a change, then you are just existing. Everyday should be a day to do something different. Try yourself out, learn your purpose, then live it. It is amazing when you find out who you truly are. And whether you like yourself or not, it is you, inside and out. There is no hiding from what lies within, and if changes need to be made, then make them.

I am a different kind woman, person, friend, daughter and there have been some life experiences that could have left me a bitter woman if I choose to be. But when you find that God takes you through things to help build up who you are , then you can accept the trials and valleys with little understanding. No matter what hurts, or who have hurt you, you can can rise above it all, because when there is a purpose you must fulfill there are certain things that need to happen before it all can take place. You can not tell anyone about anything that you have not been through yourself. That is how you use your life experiences. It is also how you accept what you cannot change and grow from it. That is what I am experiencing now. I am writing a book, but this book not only comes from my imagination, it also has some personal experiences, things that I would not have been able to write about unless I experienced them.

When you come from a different thread, and the people around you may think that you are depressed or sad because your life does not mirror theirs, it is because God has a different purpose for you. He has choose to use in a different way. It takes a willing and strong person to step back and let it happen. With all that I have been through, with all that I have experienced, there is not a person on the planet that I would trade lives with. My gifts, my life is too unique and is a one of a kind design. I guess what I trying to say is, be you. Do you, and appreciate who you are. Living in falsehood will only bring you misery and confusion. Comparing yourself to others will only allow you to slowly kill the life that God has intended for you. Go out and find yourself, then embrace and love it til' no end.

Peace.......