Have You Ever Been Dickmatized? (Adult Content)

Have you ever been dickmatized?

I know your thinking oh hell no! No, Not me! Well, if you have ever been in a relationship where the sex is immaculate and the man is not, then you have been dickmatized. He probably does not have a job, no education, no car, no real dreams or anything as such, but he can slang that 'D", so you put up with things that you normally would not because once he is inside you, you forget about all that other stuff that really should matter. Jill Scott said it best. "Where you get caught up in the whole sexuality of your relationship but it’s not going anywhere… Just somebody giving you the goods but not necessarily giving you the rest-or not expecting the rest from them.”

Being dickmatized is nothing to be embarrassed about. We as women have all fallen into some trap to make us believe that yes it will get better. We believe one day he will get a job or leave from off my couch or be able to take me out to dinner or sincerely care about me. Yes, that is that dick in action. It clouds our mental vision and creates an illusion of what we hope to be. It keeps us posted in that position until the next time he takes us to climax heaven. The tragedy comes in when we invest in the dick for the long-term and even sometimes marry the dick. Ladies, that is something you never do. You find yourself letting the dick drive your car, and you buying it clothes, food or even providing shelter for the dick. Let that dick go! If you are not ready to let the dick go and is finding it hard to say no, just think of your value and what you really want in a relationship. If you then find that all you need at this moment is some good dick, then have at it, break that mofo off! But do not invest more into it then it is investing in you.

There is no one that enjoys sex as much as I do, and having a healthy loving relationship where you are treated like a Queen and where love is reciprocated,is far more greater than just what a good dick can provide. Dick's come and go (literally). That is what they do, when you get tired of it, it will be more than happy to move on to the next, that's what it does, that's how it is, enjoy it for what it is and you too can move on. Trust me it does get better, but only if you require it to. It may have been the best dick you ever had, so you think, but dick is only as good as you are. Don't be desperate for the dick. You can not go around making dick demands when you have put up with it for years. The dick does not change. Beside's, as a woman you hold the key, your va-jayjay is way more powerful than his dick. (Those of you who do not know that, I will explain later).

I am writing this because I too, had to let go of some good ass dick. I can not even explain how sensational it was. For about 3 months it had complete power over me and I allowed it to happen. I found myself saying I love him, when I really just loved the dick. It was crazy! How could this be happening, I know better than this! Then one day I just snapped out of it. I intentionally created a nice ambience, bought champagne and candles for my last romp with this dick, then I said farewell. Once it was gone, I regained my power. I accepted it for what it was and considered it to be a test. I could have accepted the dick and that half ass man I was getting, but I needed more and those sexual sessions was not enough.

Now I am more prepared and ready to welcome a more fulfilling and realistic relationship; I have always been the monogamous type, that good dick was just a sidebar. I have no regrets about my decision to have a relationship with some good dick, every girl should have at least one. Just know when it's time to move on and let that good dick go and replace it with some good love.


Lavidus

The Change.....

There is so much I want to say, but you have probably heard it before.

There is so much that you should know, but you probably don't realize it.

L.L.Walton

The Luxury of Life

Do you really know what the luxury of life is?

Do you wake up to breakfast in bed. Do you live where there is an endless ocean view? Is it money that never runs out? How important is that life, when happiness is free? There are those that live that life and are the saddest people on the earth. I do not have much, but I am rich in love and I can truly say that I am doing better than most because I am thankful for all that God has given. For me, it is not the material things that you can see that might display my level of happiness, it is in my conversation, my giving, my time and my decision to spread happiness where ever I go. If I have $2 dollars giving half to a complete stranger is pure happiness to me. I teach to give, because holding on to whatever assets you glorify can be easily taken away. Taking a moment to share is a deposit into the gates of heaven. Helping another with sincerity opens the heart to receive abundantly. I know this, I experience it almost daily. It is how I have survived even through some of the hardest days and nights.

I have been given a lot and I have gave a lot. I did not realize that there are so many people who find me deserving of all that is good. You rarely find people who would give you the moon if that would make me happy, but I have that in my life. I will also add that that love is not there because I have a big house, a nice car, an ivy league education or thousands in the bank. It is there because of my character. I have a sincere interest in the happiness of others. I want everyone who tries to succeed. I believe there is more than enough success on this earth to share and we all can have a piece of the pie, so get yours. I must warn you, you will not get your rewards by cheating, lying, stealing or pretending. The quest has to be pure and willing. The universe supplies every need. Whatever thought you process in mind, it can come into existence, like a well written movie.

So I ask again, what is your luxury of life? Are you giving and receiving abundantly? If there is anything you need to change or recreate in your life, you can. It begins with you. The luxury is the reward of life and whatever it holds for you.

Peace and Love:)

It's been A long time......and I may never come back

I always tend to find it amazing when the course of life changes so much and so fast that when you wake up and realize what road you're on it's too late, the crash is already in progress. What can you do? Do you hope that you survive or do you hope death is the final answer to life's unexpected questions.
I know that I am not living the life that I want, but only I can change that. When you are unstable and think you have it almost together then boom! It's all over, something else appears. Something that makes you want to give up on life altogether. Something that can only hinder you in the long run. It is such an unfamiliar place that you go over in your head how you arrived at this location in the first place. You're smarter than that. You have convinced yourself that this is the right choice even though you have no idea what you have chosen. When the mask starts to peel away, you find that you've made a serious mistake. One that can not be recovered,one that you may never recover from. Even God is looking at you in dismay.
So the tears continue because the truth was never told. You're still trying to make it right, but you know deep inside there is no room for hope, so you die slowly. I never ask why. I know why. Somewhere at sometime the universe decided that I needed and wanted this. That I will never get the life I so really want because the devil works overtime on those who try to get from under the blanket of fate. So the fear sets in. You call it happiness, because that's what you want to see, when the real is that you are miserable and everything you touch will be. So another battle I fight and I anticipate the sleepless nights, because there is no answer for those who never know what real life is. Lies,lies, the lies, they have to continue because you bought the first one. But I know better right? Of course I do, so now I must put it all to an end, what other choice do I have? You can't love a species that's never been loved, not even from the womb. What you live by is what you die by. There is no happy ending for those who cause heartache and pain. I was chosen because I looked the part. Easy prey because I have an heart. A dream stealer because it has no dreams of it's own. So again I must stand up, fight my own battle, be my own hero and save my own life, because all around me are my enemies, no one to help or set me free.


Peace.

Gettin' older and Better

I know I should be embarrassed for taking this long to blog, but life is kicking in real fast and I just got a chance to slow down.

It's really a new year and as the second week glides on through I will have aged by Friday, by one year. One fast year, and I heard they get even faster as you get older. No, I am not complaining, I've looked to this age since I was half this age and it is something about getting there that makes me appreciate the journey. I had no idea what I would be doing. Maybe the marriage with kids, corporate job and all that American pie stuff. I have done some of it, but the road I am traveling now is up to the almighty and its wide open. The possibilities are endless and I am up for the surprises, focusing on all that is good and expanding my mind. I am appreciating my body and nourishing my spirit.

I am no longer "watching" my figure, but watching it form into nothing but woman. My thick thighs that wrap around his body are perfectly formed for touch and admiration. The thickness in my waist is there so I can appreciate the ass that has formed beneath it. I am woman and I love it! I am no longer concerned about the young chicks that because I "look" their age think they can compete. No,my child I am in a league you could only dream to be in, no competition here; Shiiit I pulled a dude your age yesterday,now who's the competition?

I am loving me even more. Congratulating myself for never compromising, even when I wasn't sure. I am confident in my growth, my decisions and mistakes. I am a growing flower that's rooted in soil that is moist and fertile, you dirt lovers need not apply. I am on a mission of fulfilling my dreams and living them, with few stops along the way. I am moving in an unstoppable motion that only God orchestrates, so I wait for my next instrument to be used. I am in love, a love that is so strong it can be felt for miles; this time I recognized it. I am ready to fly,soar above all to see. So take a seat and enjoy the show.


Peace and Love:<>

Happy New Year!

OMG! can't believe we are finally here in the 2011! My birthday is in about 8 days. January13th. The luckiest number in the world.


Smooches, tune in for new updates, dating scenarios and experiences.

L.L

5 Ways to Ruin a Relationship

These days trying to keep a relationship together can be tedious. There are so many things to consider when dating.  The likes and dislikes, the ups and downs and just communicating can seem daunting. Things which can sometimes be simple, become way too complicated.

When we enter a relationship, we are happy we look forward to seeing each other and everything is peachy. We call each other when we say we are and we plan to see each other a regular basis. We are in sync and communicating with each other seems effortless. But then something happens. Somewhere along the line things start to get a little twisted and off balance. I call, you won't answer. I call again, and you still won't answer. I am busy when you're free and vice-versa. All the love in Pleasantville has gone down to the alley in Horrorville and you can't figure out what happened or maybe you can.

If you have done one or all of these things then you may be the culprit in helping in the demise of your relationship.

1. NEEDY: No one really likes to be with someone who needs them all the time. It is a sign of insecurity and needing constant validation is not a good look. Have a life or get one real quick.

2. OVER COMPENSATE: Sometimes it's really hard not to show someone how much you like them. I suggest you just do it all in moderation. Giving too much too soon, will ultimately lead to getting taken advantage of, walked over and used. If you are not up for all that, please stop, learn to take a little.

3. LIE'S: Starting a relationship with an untruth will lead to more untruth's. Soon you will be dancing to the tune of "liar, liar, pant's on fire". Just don't do it. In order for someone to get to know you, you must be completely honest about who you are. And if you are not sure who you are, stay single until you find out.

4. CHEATING: No one likes to be betrayed. If you have agreed on being exclusive with each other, then be just that. If the discussion has never come up, please don't leave your exclusivity to assumptions, people get hurt that way. The only thing you can assume is that you both are still on the market.

5. FRIENDS: Not everyone is going to be happy because you are happy in your relationship, not even your dearest bestes of friends, especially if he or she is single. Keep your relationship details between you and your mate. Having frequent discussions with other people regarding your relationship will only lead to misinformed advice and you back to being single.

Peace & Love