Sunday, February 21, 2021

I Made The Devil Fall in Love-A Love Story

You might be thinking why would anyone want to make the devil fall in love? In this world of mass connections, you more than likely have had or is the devil in your life. There is no way around it. Just like angels, devils have their place in this realm. We just have to know how much power we give to it. On my quest to find love, I ran across the most handsome devil ever.

He was deliciously charming, tall inviting, mysterious and dark. All the things that would attract an unsuspecting empath like me.  He lured me through music.  I love music, it literally takes me to another place.  I feel every song.  But how did he know?   Well, it’s quite simple, music is the universal language.  It’s the age-old way to any person’s heart.  Have you ever had a person dedicate a song to you and at that point and every time after that, every moment you hear that song it becomes a permanent memory that conjures of feelings of that person?  Well, he had it down to a science.  He sent me over a hundred songs and created several playlists.  I was open and I fell in love with lyrics to the words he never said.

To feel deeply is an understatement.  I feel everything on such a level that at times, I have to isolate myself to regain my energy.  I did not see or feel it coming.  If love is indeed blind, I was covered in complete darkness, being led only by my heart and the illusion of what I was feeling in those songs. 

There is nothing more romantic than a morning text, right?  Especially if it’s from someone who you like, love or is interested in.  I would wake up to multiple songs by Anita Baker. “You Belong to Me”, “Sweet Love” and “Been So Long”.  Then, “Endless Love” by Diana Ross & Lionel Richie. “The First Time I Saw Your Face” by Roberta Flack.  Oh yes, he was good, and I feel more in love with him through every song.  Then one day it happened.  The love bombing had blown me completely up and through me across the sky only to land in the pit of despair and confusion because the reality of this charming little devil had come with a sting that was unbearable to my heart.  I was not the only one.

How did I fall for this?  My intelligence has forsaken me only to be deceived by my emotions!  I was furious, not at him for being the charming little devil he was, but at me for falling for it.  He was a professional and had a formula that worked.  I had to step outside my emotions and give him a taste of his own medicine.  I began to send him songs.  “Love is a Battlefield”, by Pat Benatar.  He thought that I was unhappy because at this point, we were not seeing each other as much.  The excuses were becoming laughable and I was on my way out the door, so he had no idea the battle was with him. “Mr. Wrong” by Mary J. Blige.  Although I was letting him know that I was coming out of my love coma and seeing him for who he is, he thought that I was so in love with him.   Even though he and I both knew he was an asshole, I would be more than happy to continue this one-sided relationship.    

Getting over a man who has deceived you sends you into an emotional overload.  I cried, then I was happy, then I was mad and then I was drunk.  So, I sent him “Drunk In Love”, by BeyoncΓ©.   He gave it a heart and thought it was cute.  The ego tends to bring you to a comfort level within a relationship that may not be there.  The belief that someone you mistreat will never leave you, is simply the biggest under estimation ever. In fact, you should expect it.  Then I finally ended it and sent him “Without Me” by Fantasia.  Then he finally got the message after weeks of no response or attention.   He was calling and texting trying to find out what was wrong, what happened.  Then he was sorry about what was wrong and what happened.  Then his charm went out the window.  His horns began to grow, and he went from a warm brown to a screaming red.  His cover had been blown; he was not as handsome.  He was filled with begging then threats.  He was now chasing me.  Dying for my attention and doing anything to get it.  I of course was done and have no interest in the dying breed.  I had mended my heart and did not look back.  I saved myself from what could have been years of confusion and misdirected love.  If you ever run across a man who seems too good to be true, wait it out, it just might be a charming little devil.


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