My Broken Heart

A few years ago, there was nothing more painful than my broken heart.
A promise to love has been violated and there is no putting the pieces back together, or at least these pieces because now I have been transformed into something new.  Never to return to the woman I was.

You took all that I gave, and in return, you deceived me, took me for granted, lied, cheated with girls and boys and now you want to return? I think not, my love.  Your dagger was sweet. It entered my back as you hit it from the back, so the pain of it was unnoticed.

My eyes closed, but when they opened, I saw how my low self-esteem, allowed you to steamroll all over my heart.  How my amazing love would never change you.  I saw how tight my eyes were closed, with my heart wide open to your deception.  I only wanted to see the love in you, which was an illusion. It's amazing how the worse person can be seen with loving eyes from the lover.  I saw only the good in you because those were the moments I looked forward to, but you were bad from the start.  So it was a happy ending.

Today, you see a woman who knows what real love is.  A woman who is no longer impressed by words, but actions.  A woman who will never give up on love and being with a man who is in tune with self, because how you treat yourself will determine our future.  I am a woman who lives in the moment and wears her painful moments as growth and loving myself fiercely.   Never bitter, only love eludes from the soul of me, only to connect with the fire that is within you. This won't be no easy ride, but it will lift you to new heights. Calm your soul with a touch and solve all problems with a kiss.  Are you ready? Let's Go!

Loving Me Forever

Know the Difference......

These days you have to know the difference.

Know the difference between a man who is just for right now and one who's forever.
The one that is forever will be like no one you have ever met, the one for right now will be just that.

Know the difference between a boy and a man
A man will try something new, a boy will try what has worked in the past.

Know the difference between a girl and a woman
A woman will look for a deeper connection, a girl will look for deeper pockets.

Know the difference between love and lust
Lust will leave you temporarily satisfied (if you're lucky),  love satisfies forever.

Know the difference between who you are and who you are not
Who you are not will have you pretending, who you are will have you winning.

Know the difference between who is  for you and those who are against you
Those who are against you admire you, those who are for you admire you.

Know the difference between " I want you" and "I want you".
One will deceive you and the other will relieve you of all your cares and worries

So as you maneuver through life, traveling through space and entering dimensions, make sure you know the difference.

Love & Flight

GoodBYE!

Now that the new year has begun and all the new resolutions have been said if there is anything else that needs to be gotten rid of, do it now, wrap it up and say goodbye!  Do not carry old baggage, old relationships that cling around with no real meaning, old people that serve no real purpose, old news, old situations, over to the new year.  Just drop it all like it's hot and move into the new that's required of you.  The new you that will no longer let you sit and be less than magnificent.

I thought I had gotten rid of those old things, but like rashes, old things tend to sneak back into your life, only to remind you that this is old shit, so why bother?  I always think of it as the universe having a sense of humor, testing your growth per se.   But do not be fooled by the past, it comes back to take you back.  Continue to move forward and focus on your goals, and dreams and those that truly love you.  Leave no room for imposters, weak minds, or indecisive people. There is something that you want out there and whatever it is, wants you too.  It is how the universe conspires to give us what we desire.  Just believe and stay focused and ignore the rest.

We are at the end of the energy cycle where all new things begin, for some, if you have done the work.  Whether it's a new you, new job, new life, it all requires the same energy to change.  Be a part of the change that transcends you to new heights.  Face your fears, it's all apart of the growth cycle.  Do not let anyone detour you off what you intend on accomplishing.  Distractions, energy vampires all serve a purpose, we can learn something from them.  The next time you feel like going back to that toxic relationship, or stay at that toxic job or deal with those toxic people; tell them, thank you for the lessons, but  I've outgrown you and I can take it from here.  

Love, Light & Darkness

My podcast: anchor.fm/ll-walton
Twitter: @LLWriter
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Make Him Settle

I have been single for a few years.  It has been a time of growth, maturity and realizing my true worth as a woman.  I had the pleasure of being in love with and loved by a man who did nothing but show me that he loved me.  So when I run across men who expect me to court and pursue them, they usually just get a blank stare, blocked or used for something.

Although dating has had its perks, I still find myself meeting men who expect me to lower my standards to date them.  Never that.  You will have to understand my history in order to understand why I will never take fuckboys, self-centered jackasses or these certified players serious.   And what's worse than a young fuckboy, an old one.   When a woman decides to play with a man's emotions, she can do a hundred times more damage to the heart of a man, than he could ever do, so why play with it?

Often times when myself or any woman who is complete with herself and has her own,  often find ourselves settling for these half ass men offering crumbs.  It's a case of having a little bit of someone, then having a whole lot of no one. They come around to see how they can benefit from your light.  But don't get in the habit of accepting less than what you want in a man, have him meet your standards.  And if he can not, then let him settle for who and what he can get.  You are the real prize.  I guarantee, he will always come back around to try and test the waters, because when you are settling, the other one will never be enough.  Entertain him if you like, but make sure you send them back to whoever he came from.

I will always believe in love.  It's all around me and it will only take one moment that will solidify my desire for you.   Never settle for the first man that shows interest, date and be selective.  Enjoy the process of getting to know someone, because a lot of them have masks and hide their true intentions.  Take your time and never rush. If he comes rushing in, you put the brakes on and look him in his eyes and find out what he really wants.   Dating does not mean that you are having sex with every man that's interested in you, it just means that you have options and exploring the best man for you.


My podcast: anchor.fm/ll-walton
Twitter: @LLWriter
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Blog: llwalton.blogspot.com

Love and Love Again!!

Faking It 'til You Make It

Do you measure up to your own expectations?  It has been said that you can fool some of the people, some of the time, but not all the people, all of the time.  So what are you telling yourself in regards to your success?  Do you convince yourself into believing you are something you are not?  Are your thoughts about yourself in alignment with who you believe you are.  Are you living your best life or someone else's?

Think about it.  There are many who like to play pretend and that is ok.   As the aphorism goes, "Fake it until you make it", which means if you pretend you have confidence, and that you are rich and famous, you will soon realize those qualities in your life, right?  If you pretend like you are the president of an organization or the best writer on the planet, those things will soon be your reality. But is it that simple?  Faking it as if I am your girlfriend will not get me to be your girlfriend, so use it where it applies.

I believe you can have anything you desire. Manifesting the life you want is real.  We are creators, and the sincere feeling of what we desire is the catalyst that sends the vibration to the universe.  For those who choose to take the faking it making it route, when does the faking it end and the making it begins?  Is faking it synonomous with making it since you are actually manifesting what it is you desire?  It's all a matter of perception and what you believe.

I believe in myself.  I make it a point to check in with myself and not get distracted and pulled away from my intentions.  I visualize myself doing, being and feeling this new existence, all while appreciating the present.  I don't always make the right decisions and  I always look for the lessons in my mistakes.  I don't feel I need to prove myself to anyone,  I know who I am.  I never compare myself to anyone, I know who I am.  Get in the habit of being fine with where ever you are right now.  Give yourself a break.  Even if you are not exactly where you want to be, find comfort in knowing that you will eventually get there and its already done.  Even if you feel like giving up remember this is a journey and the road may turn, twist, and get a little bumpy, but keep going.  The canvas of your life will change many times, measure each step, even an inch is progress.

When you are transitioning to your higher self, making new strides, and accomplishing your goals, obstacles may look hard to get over, people will come and go but stay on your path.   Believing is better than faking it.  Put that fake shit aside and put the work in, believe in yourself, and you should be just fine.  You have been properly equipped with all the tools you need to be a success.   And for those of you are not quite ready to be real with yourself.  Your time of self-realization is near.  You can't run forever, check the mirror and there you are.  Embrace and accept yourself, you deserve that kind of freedom.

The next time you set a goal but don't reach it, or the next time you're hard on yourself because you have failed again, know that you are on the right path that is designed and tailored especially for you and there's no faking that.


Love & Kisses

My podcast: anchor.fm/ll-walton
Instagram: llwaltonauthor
Twitter: @LLWriter