Tuesday, January 29, 2008

A Great Place...

You are in a great place when.......

You no longer care what people think.
You can eat whatever you want without having to worry about your weight.
You trust your intuition.
You are reaping the rewards of being alive.
You do not have to be validated by anyone or anything.
You are comfortable in your own skin.
You love being who you are, faults and all.
You don't have to answer your phone.
You can tell people "the business" without feeling guilty for it.

Sunday, January 27, 2008

Ulterior...ok WTF!.....U talk too Much!

I am seriously about to fire my spell check! ulterior Muthaf#444r!~ That just messes up my damn quote.

Anyway, the day started great. I had breakfast with one of my good friends. One of those friends that finish your sentences, can totally relate, without you saying much, and just plain there even if she does not have a solution for your problems. She's one of those people that if she does not have anything to say, she'll say, "I just don't know what to say".
Moving on........My next topic is about those people who just have too much to say and once they say it, you wish that you never had to hear such BS in the first place. Those that just talk to hear themselves talk. There is no meaning, or substance, they swear they just know it all. Let me tell you exactly what to do with those people. Let them talk. I am not a person who can sit around and talk about miscelleneous shit that does not mean anything. I only get involved in a conversation if I have something to say, but if you sit around and listen to the one that is doing the most talking, you'll find that they don't know that much at all. I am a profound listener, which is the most necessary part of communicating. When you listen there is a less chance that you will make a complete ass out of yourself. People who do not listen are too preoccupied with what they have to say as oppose to what is being said. It's quite funny and interesting to watch, you can almost guess who the ass of the group will be.

Smooches

Kindness

Doing good deeds from the kindness of your heart, generates the best of rewards in return. Doing things with ulterior motives, just creates a cycle of having to do things with ulterior motives.

You can quote me on that.

Saturday, January 26, 2008

Peace of Mind....

Yes, that thing called peace of mind. Having it for me is a choice, any other way and I would simply, snap, crackle and pop! I am making the decision to change my way of life. In a weird way, the universe of forcing me too, but I am agreeing to it, so the transition won't be as painful.

Refusing to be in the company of people, who I do not relate to or who is not on the level is one of the things I am going to change. It's funny when you hear what people think your solution to your problems are. Let me tell you, it's impossible for someone to see your shit clearly when their shit is clouded by shit, right? I mean, would you ask a crackhead for advice? When considering advice, please consider the source.

Value my experience. I just became a year older a week or so ago, and I look back on all the things that I have been through and learned. There is no way a person with less life experience can tell me anything. Feeling the need to be validated is not one of my problems, I could give a shit what people think. Damn, I mean people really have some serious issues, and I do too, but I have absolutely nothing to prove to no one, which brings me to my next point.

I am perfect in his eyes. Yes, I am perfect. God made me this way. He set the path that I am on. Protected and covered by his grace. This amazing and wonderful journey that I have been on, though hard at times, it has indeed been my greatest experience. But stay to tuned to what's to come. There is no way that I can live this incredible life and not share it in one form or another.

Lastly, I am going to give more to people who need it. Give in every possible way.

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Privilege ok spell check WTF!!!!!

Shut the F*ck Up!

Things I Didn't know...........

I had the privalege to run into a lot of fun and interesting facts along my journey. I can not help but share with you the things that I found a bit surprising....but true.

1. I did not know that I was a celebrity...........I had more people talking about me than I care to know..thanks for caring...take a picture trick!.......lol
2. That misery not only loves company, but it recruits on a regular basis.
3. There are more gay men who are married than you can imagine.
4. There are some places in America, that are like a 3rd world country.
5. Prostitution is not only still alive, but is passed down like a family heirloom.
6. Loving yourself is still the greatest love of all.
7. There are some people who believe that death is the only hope.
8. Women still do not trust other women. (Some of them have good reason).
9. There are still women who would rather be with someone, than "the one".
10. Everything comes to an end.

Gone Long Enough...........

Hello, Hi! Happy New Year!

And I am back!

According to the Chinese, this is the Year of the Rat (2008). A year of new beginnings, a time to make a fresh start. And yes, I am feeling just that.

I have been on hiatus for the last three months. I took some time to visit some people, breathe some fresh air, and just live. There was no worry about bills, no car, just the clothes on my back and a little flexibility. And I tell ya', it was well worth it.

I decided not to go back to the ATL, although lovely, my heart brought me back to good ole' California. It was the unexpected death of my daughter's father that became my true reality check. I ran into some interesting people along the way, found some new family members, and learned that in 2008 there are people that still eat chitterlings, or shitlings as I call them.

The death of Justin, really shook me. He was the most intense love I have ever had. Although we could not be together, he was my best friend and the relationship taught me the most about what love is. I will forever miss him and cherish the time that we had.

During this time off, I could not write anything. My mind was filled with so many images that I could not put them on paper. I was also involved with a man that was 10 years younger than me, and that was a very nice relationship. He was what I needed at that time, and believe me you, he fulfilled the need.....heheheh! But even that had to end. For it was the reality of life that brought me back from Gilligan's Island, and placed me back into the realms of real life. What a lovely place to have gone. I forgave those that needed to be forgiven, I loved those that needed my love, and I helped those that needed my help. I have left those that needed to be left in my past, realizing they were never on my level anyway, and moved on to something greater than I expected. My life is not be shared with the simple minds, for they will bore the hell out of me. Yes, it's great being me! Too kind that heart of mine; now the time has come to continue evolving. Live to my full potential. So for those of you who have kept up with my blog, thank you very much. Plan to hear stories of my adventures, and everyday life.

Smooches,
Peace & Blessings

UPDATE:

As some of you may know all of my social media accounts have been hacked. If you receive text or calls from my phone or email it not have be...